Chapter 39
I would’ve caved in immediately back then.
But when I grew up and knew what love really was. I would find that the me in the past merely caved in because I hadn’t let Felix go.
Felix spotted the minute changes in my expression and smiled. He grabbed my hand. “I never knew you could be such a wildcat. You’re pretty amazing.”
Right? It also got me thinking. I was committed to being his lackey back then and listened to every word he said. I never got my time to shine, that was all.
We didn’t really talk much after that. I mostly listened to what Felix had to say.
He told me about his life in university, his loving relationship with Lilac, and his plans for their future. He spoke of so many things and different people, yet never mentioned me.
I couldn’t help but wonder whether Felix actually knew what I was thinking or if this was his way of telling me to stop holding out for him.
It wasn’t really a pleasant barbecue.
Felix really was cruel to tell the girl who had a crush on him for years all about his relationship with
another girl.
The rain grew heavier on the way back home. The wind made the trees sway heavily. Dark clouds broiled ahead, thunder crackling within them. Lightning occasionally flashed across the sky, cutting through the
clouds.
I recalled the weather alert earlier this afternoon and regretted coming out.
Sure enough, nothing good would come when I was with Felix.
The both of us shared a small parasol ladies often used. It was…
“A small umbrella is better than none. We should hurry up and run. We won’t get too much rain on us that
way.” Felix said as he looked up at the night sky in front of Burning Bacon.
I was five feet and seven inches tall, while Felix was six feet tall. He was taller than me by a head, so I
had to look up at him when we spoke. “How about I use the umbrella to get home while you run back?”
“No way.” Felix took my umbrella and opened it up before walking out into the rain.
The rainfall was heavy against my small umbrella. The both of us stayed close to one another, yet that didn’t stop the rain from falling mercilessly onto us. Half of my clothes were quickly drenched.
The rain pattered as it landed on my umbrella. All I could smell was Felix.
My heart began pounding. I quickly reminded myself to keep a clear head and stepped away from him
slightly.
Felix pulled me back close under the umbrella. “Just a little more. We’ll be home soon.”
The umbrella had already shortened the distance between us. His sudden tug of my arm only pulled me closer to him as if he were cradling me in his arms.
Blood rushed up to my cheeks, making them blush. To my surprise, I wanted this rain to last a little longer. I wanted Felix’s embrace too much. I missed the smell of him.
But my mind was clear.
Felix was not mine.
I stubbornly tried keeping a distance from him, but he held onto my hand with a steadfast expression. I couldn’t wrench out of his grasp, so I let him hold onto me.
Soon after, I suddenly heard someone call Felix’s name. It sounded like whoever it was had been crying. The voice broke apart in the loud noise of the rain, though one couldn’t deny its existence.
Felix’s behavior changed immediately. He shoved the umbrella into my hands and started looking around wide–eyed. “I didn’t hear wrongly, did I, Luna? I heard Lill’s voice.”