Chapter 184 
I pretended to be asleep and ignored Helen. 

“Stop pretending. I know you’re awake,” she slurred and flopped onto her bed. 
“How did you find out?” I propped myself up. Helen lay on her bed. Her glamorous attire failed to conceal the disappointment and sadness she was feeling. 
“Your eyes were moving. And your breathing was odd too. You don’t breathe like that when you’re asleep.” Helen sat up and ruffled her hair out of frustration. 
Her nose was red, and she spoke with a nasal voice. I wondered if the autumn wind had given her a cold or if she had cried for a long time. 
Given her looks and her family background, Helen was prideful and confident. But her unrequited love for Matthew might have dealt a huge blow to her ego. 
I was also certain that Matthew was the reason why she was so upset now. However, there 
wasn’t much I could do. 
To ask a guy who liked me to like another woman was very cruel. I couldn’t possibly do that. 
“It’s getting late. Go to bed.” I turned to the other side and decided to continue sleeping. 
Escapism was the perfect solution for someone who couldn’t do anything like me. 
Helen lay down for a while. Then, she went to clean herself in the shower before drying her hair on the bed silently. 
Later, she switched off the lights. The apartment was pitch–black except for the moonlight that shone through the window. It landed on our feet, making the environment look 
desolate. 
“Lulu, you truly don’t want to date Matthew?” asked Helen when I almost fell asleep. 
Her voice was so soft, like the summer breeze that passed through one’s fingers. 
I sighed internally. Helen had always had a crush on Matthew since she was little. Yet, Matthew liked me. Somehow, I became her roommate. What a twisted joke from life itself! 
“The Matthew I know is the Matthew from high school. He was my classmate and his grandmother’s dearest grandson. But he has now become the eldest son of his family. He’ll take over his family one day. That is what divides us. 
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“I wasn’t sure if I should date him. What happened today only made me realize how different we both are. Helen, I’ll never date him. And his family will never allow him to date 
me.” 
“After you left, Matthew threw a hissy fit. He fought with his parents in front of all the guests. His father dragged him to the study to punish him. The Loxleys are infamous for their strict discipline. Matthew was severely punished, but he still insisted on marrying only 
you. 
“You know, he has always been an obedient kid. He never talks back to his parents, not even when he was in his rebellious phase as a teenager. But today, for the first time, he defied his parents. I was devastated to see the wounds on his body. 
“But I couldn’t do anything about it because he didn’t need my help.” 
Helen wiped away her tears and covered her eyes with the back of her hand. “Luna, you have no idea how lucky you are. I can only dream of the day he looks at me the way he looks at you. I idolize him. Whenever I dream of his smile, I’ll wake up with a goofy grin. 
“I’ve done everything I could for him, but he never even bats an eye at me. Yet you, you don’t need to do anything. You only have to maintain your air of aloofness and smile at him. once in a while to drive him crazy. 
“He’s head over heels for you. Are you not moved at all? If it were me, I’d be over the moon.“