Chapter 362
To deliver Colin from suffering, to save the tough man in my heart from his moral dilemma, I made a shocking decision.
The decision was sudden and hurtful, but it wasn’t selfish.
He told me that he could handle the situation. It wasn’t that I did not trust him or think that
I had a better solution.
I merely felt bad for him. I didn’t want him to go through so much pain and woe for me. I did not want my existence to be his burden.
The defeated look on his face filled my mind. It broke my heart. I told myself that I’d bring light and joy to his life, even if it meant I had to suffer in hell for eternity.
Was I mad? No, I wasn’t. I just didn’t want him to be sad.
When I recalled this incident many years later, I realized how thoughtless I was.
Colin imprisoned me in his arms, refusing to let me leave. He was searching for my lips, trying to seal it before I said the words he’d hate to hear.
But for some reason, an incredible strength burst out from me. I shoved Colin away, and he
hit a wall.
“Lulu, please come back, you idiot.” Colin ignored his pain and tried to grab me, but I dodged away agilely.
Yes, I was an idiot. Colin, I was an idiot who’d do anything for you.
At that moment, I thought I was doing what was necessary. I ignored the despair in Colin’s voice and believed that I could be his hero.
I steeled my mind and looked away. Then, I ran toward Felix.
Felix had won. He out–stubborned us.
“Felix, as long as you climb back down, I’ll forgive you and date you. I promise.”
Those few words stabbed right into my heart and my soul.
Did it hurt? No, I had already grown numb. I only felt despair.
I felt despair because I just lost my chance to spend my life with Colin forever.
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I loved him deeply, and he loved me too. But I needed to ask for his forgiveness now.
I turned around to look at Colin. One of his arms was reaching out to me. The light in his eyes dimmed. I saw endless pain and hopelessness.
My voice caught Felix by surprise. The female officer immediately seized the opening, grabbed him from under his arms, and pinned him down. The male officer that came with me bolted in and dragged him out of the ledge.
The rescue mission was a success. The crowd under the building applauded the officers for saving yet another young life.
Unbeknownst to them, two lives were sacrificed to save this young man’s life.
An ambulance came. Felix was carried on the stretcher while Colin and I followed the
ambulance.
The door to the emergency room closed shut before us. I closed my eyes, refusing to look at the dreadful sight.
The corridor was eerily silent. My soul searched for a safe corner, to no avail.
Colin hugged me from behind, his warm tears wetted my neck. I turned around and cried loudly into his embrace.
“I’m sorry, Colin. I don’t want to do this. I can’t let you go either, but there are no other options. I can’t let Felix die and do nothing about it. He’s your brother, and he saved my life. Don’t resent me, Colin. I don’t know what else to do.”
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