Chapter 301
I sat beside Felix’s bed, considering what to say.
I used to believe that 18 years were a long time. However, when I was 22, I realized there wasn’t much to talk about when I recalled it.
“Felix, you’re such a coward. What are you trying to escape from by lying here? You’re tall, handsome, and a top student who ranked in the top three on all exams. Many girls had had a crush on you and wanted to pursue you. If I hadn’t stupidly helped you avoid them all those years, you might have gotten in
trouble.
“I don’t mind you not appreciating me, but you’re now torturing us. You’re so heartless. Perhaps being cruel is your true nature. You appear unachievable, after all. Others believe you’re indifferent, and many
girls think you’re out of reach.
“It’s alright if you keep your disinterest in everything. But why did you hide Matthew’s love letters from me? You’ve done too many awful things that God hasn’t spared you. That’s why you have no choice but to lie here and listen to my accusatory comments. You deserve it.”
I no longer had fond dreams about Felix. In my eyes, he was no longer anything more than an ordinary bastard. He couldn’t expect me to have a positive attitude toward a scumbag. It was already my greatest
kindness to speak with him calmly.
Aunt Mel probably thought what I said was unpleasant and wanted to stop me, but Uncle Austin
intervened.
“Let them handle their business. It’s already great that Lulu will help us. We can’t go too far.”
What he said was right.
I stared at the sleeping Colin, rambling on about past occurrences. Whether those were happy, upset, or
dissatisfied, I said everything that came to mind.
As I spoke, I was entirely immersed in those dusty memories. The years I had with Felix were filled with
not only sadness and pain but also a lot of joy.
After talking for over an hour, I felt thirsty.
Someone next to me gave me an unscrewed mineral water bottle. I didn’t think much and drank it. Only then did I realize the person bringing me water was Colin. He stood close to me, smiling gently.
1/2:
When the doctor came over for ward rounds after the shift, he stated that Felix was doing well and all indicators were normal. He asked us to keep working hard and speak to Felix more about the things he cared about and took to heart. It would be beneficial to wake him up soon.
Colin soon persuaded Uncle Austin and Aunt Mel to rest at home. He stayed with me after buying my favorite food.
As there was no dining table in the ward, we leaned against the window sill, cuddled up. We fed each other and had the sweetest meal.
Of course, it was unfortunate that we had an unpleasant New Year. However, it wasn’t too horrible with Colin by my side.
After dinner, I still needed to talk to Felix. I was impatient, but I had no other way.
Rather than speaking with Felix, I preferred to sit with Colin and enjoy the tranquility of the sunset, but I had to do what I had promised. Regardless of how impatient I was, I had to hold on. For Colin’s sake, I motivated myself to keep going.
At 9:00 pm, the nurse checked the wards outside and asked us to turn out the lights and rest.
Colin unfolded the narrow foldable accompanying chair in the dark. Then, we hugged and lay together on
it.