Chapter 254
No, I couldn’t agree to Felix’s proposal.
Lilac was indeed not good enough, but that wasn’t a reason for me to hurt her. Felix was her man now. I couldn’t be the one who wrecked other people’s relationships.
I needed to think carefully and figure out my true feelings.
Before that, I couldn’t casually make my choice between Felix and Colin.
Especially with Colin. If I chose him, I had to love him wholeheartedly and consider him the love of my life. He couldn’t be a tool to fend off Felix.
I had to leave this place and get away from Felix.
I needed to think carefully and make the right decision.
The 18–year–old Luna Lawson could be capricious, but the 22–year–old Luna Lawson was already an adult. I had to be responsible for every choice I made.
Wiping away my tears, I turned and strode away. Unexpectedly, I found myself in a firm yet warm embrace.
The man was holding me tightly. His proud head was nestled in the crook of my neck. His warm breath and clean scent of pine calmed my irritation and frustration bit by bit.
Lifting my blurry, tearful eyes to look at him, I saw that his deep eyes were brimming with indulgence. Behind that lay his worry and sorrow.
“Lulu, you look the prettiest when you smile. Don’t cry,” he murmured in a deep voice, each word striking my heart. “Whatever your decision is, I’ll respect it. So, just follow your heart.”
Look at this. This was how Colin spoiled me.
He just wanted me to be happy and never troubled me.
Gradually, my heart leaned toward him.
“Why are you eavesdropping again?” I nestled in his embrace, breathing in his scent deeply. I felt utterly at peace. The anger provoked by Felix slowly dissipated.
Colin wanted me to follow my heart, but I wondered whose heart mine rested with. How should I choose?
I was unable to find an answer.
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Some might question me for not knowing who has been good to me. Was it so hard to make a decision? Was I simply greedy, wanting both? Or maybe I had never forgotten Felix and had been waiting for him to have a change of heart!
I really didn’t know.
I wasn’t being absurd, really. I wasn’t as bad as some might think.
I just didn’t want to make a decision that I’d regret and would hurt others. I needed to think calmly and rationally.
“If I hadn’t eavesdropped, how would I have known that my beloved, whom I’ve loved for more than 20 years, loves me back? My love, believe me, I’ll never let you go in this life.”
“Stop saying such touching things. It’s hard enough to hold back my tears. If you keep talking, I’ll cry again.”
“Alright, if you want me to stop, then I will. But thinking about it, did I really do all those things? It must’ve been tiring for me back then. Don’t you think I was silly? I never felt tired at all.”
“Yeah, what should we do about that?”
“You have to compensate me.”
“How should I do that?”
He released me slightly and looked at me with his deep gaze. It was like the ocean, drowning
me.
“Be my girlfriend.”
“I’m sorry, Colin. Can I have some more time to think?” 1
His bright, star–like eyes dimmed. A slight look of sadness emerged in them. Yet, he still managed to force a smile. “Okay, I won’t ever trouble you. As long as it’s you, I’m willing to wait.”
My tears, nearly dried by the wind, welled up again. They quickly streamed down my cheeks, a few teardrops making their way into my mouth.
This time, the tears were not salty but had a hint of sweetness.