Chapter 171
“Luna, I’m not telling you this to upset you. I just want to share. I like him so much. Why can’t he see it? Especially since you appeared, he won’t even give me a second glance. Do you think I’ll never win him over in this lifetime? Should I give up?”
I was put in a difficult position. How was I supposed to respond?
If I said yes, it would inevitably hurt Helen. I didn’t want to become the Lilac of the past, nor did I want Helen to become the me of the past.
If I said no, I would only make things difficult for myself. It’d be like shooting myself in the
foot.
Matthew was a suitor I wanted to give a chance to. He was a former high school classmate who grew up with me and had liked me for many years. Encouraging Helen to continue pursuing Matthew would be absurd. It would also hurt Matthew’s feelings.
“Well, I think you need to decide for yourself. It’s difficult for me to comment on this,” I
said with some difficulty but absolute sincerity.
“Hmph, what’s so hard about it? You don’t like him, yet you’re holding onto him. Either way, it’s unfair.”
I was speechless.
I hadn’t fallen for Matthew yet, but that didn’t mean I wouldn’t in the future, right?
Besides, I had agreed to consider him, which meant I was prepared to accept Matthew. The fact that he had an admirer as excellent as Helen made me feel insecure.
They said childhood friends couldn’t compete with a fateful lover. But to Matthew, I was both a childhood friend and a fateful lover. I wondered what the outcome would be.
At least I was certain that once Matthew and I became a couple, I wouldn’t tolerate him having a childhood friend with whom he shared such intimate moments.
Not only was Helen troubled, but I was somewhat troubled as well. What a mess!
The next day, I talked to Matthew about this. By the end, I mentioned how childhood friends were especially dangerous in romantic relationships. So–called childhood friends had ruined many couples.
Matthew seemed overjoyed. “Lulu, you’re finally getting jealous over me. Looks like my
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years of unrequited love weren’t in vain.”
There was another party in the evening. There were dazzling lights and overflowing wine. The private room was shrouded in mist and the smell of alcohol.
It was too lively for my taste. I habitually went outside for some air.
The club’s private rooms had a long corridor outside. It was a separate space. I felt that leaning on the railing and breathing in fresh air was much more comfortable than staying
inside.
When I was about to return inside, I saw Matthew and a friend of his sitting on a couch near the terrace door. They were talking about me. I halted my steps.
“Matthew, are you planning to settle down?”
“Yeah, I’ve been thinking about it for many years.”
“Do you think your love life will be smooth with her background? Mr. Loxley cares so much. about your status as the heir. How could he allow you to marry a woman outside the social circle? Our lives have already been planned for us. Love is a luxury for us.
“I won’t worry about that too much. My marriage is my own. I won’t trade marriage and
love for benefits.”
“What about Helen? She has liked you for many years, and you’ve been indifferent to her. It hurts us just to watch.”
Matthew was silent for a moment before he said, “It takes two for love to work. I owe her in this matter. I’ll find a way to make it up to her later.
“The person in my heart is Luna. That will never change in this lifetime.”
“You’ve liked her for many years?”
“Yes, from the first day of high school. I like her and want to give her my best. Now, I finally have the chance to do it. I’ll never let go, not even at the cost of my life.”