LADESSA.
“A sleepy shifter won’t emit an aroused scent, Adessa,” Kael said, and I felt him move away from me.
I remained still with my eyes closed, clutching my blanket tightly. I was so brave yesterday in telling him I would pleasure him as long as he returned safely, but I was cowering at the moment. What if he ended up not satisfied? What if I couldn’t make him cum?
Or what if, like last time, we had sex and his mind drifted off to Desiree?
Wait!
Did he say he broke up with Desiree after he bought that ring back?
“Kael?” I said in almost a whisper.
“Hmmm…” He mummed.
“Why did you break up with Desiree?”
“I have a wife.” He answered in a monotone voice.
“”We are divorced.”
“Because I decided hastily. I shouldn’t have done that. If I didn’t, then you’re still my wife.”
I remained quiet, not knowing what to say.
“Up to this moment, I’m still trying to connect the dots on things I don’t understand. Sometimes, I would knock my head onto something to see if I would end up remembering anything.”
“It must be hard not to remember anything.”
“It’s not easy. I felt stupid and dumb at times.”
“You’re not stupid or dumb.”
“I’m sure you thought of me that way when I kicked you out of my life without asking for your side of the story.”
“I won’t deny I was upset, and I got angry at some point, but I never thought of you that way. I knew what happened was more because this is how my life has always been. I never get what I want. I assumed it was life’s way of saying “no” to me one more time.” “You want me.” He said in a low voice, but I heard it loud and clear.
I swallowed. It was unfair if I had to tell him that when I didn’t even know where I stood in his life. All I knew was that he was here because he was a good man, and he felt guilty for all the chaos in my life.
I sensed his movement, but I couldn’t tell if he turned his back on me or faced me, as I stayed in the same position.
“Adessa?” He spoke, breaking the silence between us.
“Hmm…”
“After we clear your name and we get out of this mess, do you think…” He paused, and my heartbeat began picking up pace. I gripped my blanket more tightly, anticipating the worst as I waited for him to continue.
“Do you think we can give our marriage another try?” Kael’s voice was so low, as if he had a difficult time speaking.
I closed my eyes, stopping the tears from falling. This was better-much better than I expected.
I gathered myself and controlled my breathing before I replied. “Yes… I would love that.”
I wanted to say many things, but it was the only thing that came out of my lips. I felt the mattress dip behind me before his arm slipped under me, snaking around my body, and he pulled me back. I ended up resting my back against his naked torso. His other arm wrapped around me, hugging me while his lips pressed against the back of my head. My shoulders relaxed, and my hold on the blanket loosened until I completely let go of it and abruptly turned my body around.
I didn’t stop myself this time. I wrapped my arms around his neck and pressed my head on his chest, my leg snaking around his thigh.
I could feel his hard cock prodding against my front, but more than the tingles spreading between my legs, I was overwhelmed by the intimacy of our position and the warmth his body was giving to my entire being.
“I’ll be a better mate this time…” He mumbled.
“You’ve always been a good mate.”
“I wasn’t. If I were, then I shouldn’t
have let the whole pack think you seduced and tricked me into marrying you.” His arms tightened around me, squeezing my body. was a bit painful, but I didn’t complain. I was basking in his warmth and the words he was showering me with. “I promise, once we can resume our lives back in our pack, I will fix that part.”
“How about Desiree?”
“She made her choice when she cheated on me. I shouldn’t have protected her because I became unfair to you.”
“You love her. Of course, you’d protect her.”
“But I don’t anymore.”
My head tilted up and met his gaze. I still couldn’t believe these words were coming out of his mouth.
At the beginning of our marriage, he was vocal about missing her, and it went on like that for many months until we never talked about her. We never had a conversation in which he admitted he didn’t love or miss her anymore. “How sure are you with that when she’s the only woman you can remember?”
“I don’t know what happened. I woke
up from my coma and knew she was the one wanted to marry. But as days went by, I realized I was waking up every day detesting having to encounter her—that avoided every possible moment we were alone. I was dreading intimacy. But if anything, Desiree never
pushed harder when I said no.”
I didn’t say anything, as I was never there when they were together and didn’t see more of them when he lost his memory, except for that one encounter where she was sitting on his lap.
“Let’s not talk about her,” Kael said, snapping me from my thoughts. His hand brushed against the skin of my arm. “Let’s talk about the redhead in my arms.”
“What about me?” I asked as I lowered my gaze and rested my cheek on his chest.
“Landon told me you’re an orphan. No family. Not even a last name. Tell me more.”
“Are you sure you want to talk about that and not about the one I promised you?” I had no idea why I suddenly had the courage to raise this topic.
Kael took a deep breath, and I felt something harder poking on my thigh. “Look at me, Adessa.”
I titled my head up and met his gaze. He had one arm under his head, and the other was still snaking around me. He was staring at me with face devoid of emotions. “Are ready for that? Or are you trying to finish what you started but didn’t really mean it?”
My mouth parted, but nothing came out. My throat felt dry. He smiled warmly at me before he moved his hand and tucked the stray hair on my face behind my ears. “I can wait.” “Kiss me, Kael,” I said in a hoarse voice.
I saw him swallow as his eyes dilated. “Are you sure?”