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“I thought.” He looks at me confused.
“I should run, I should refuse you Calix, but even the last few days I missed you. Despite everything.” His hand reaches out and he pulls me to him.
“I felt it.” His words are soft against my ear. “At first I thought the feeling was because it was a trap that message. Then I felt it, somehow I felt like you had given up, and I looked like a crazy person telling the driver to hurry, ignoring Troy when he said it was fine. Had you not waken up, I don’t think I would be stood around today. The guilt would have taken me, not just from what I caused you to do, but for taking you from my brothers.”
I settle against him, and we move slowly to the music as he holds my body against his.
“So, now will you stop avoiding me?” I pull back and look at him.
“I’m here aren’t I?” He smiles and my head shakes.
“I meant refusing to touch me. Making excuses up about how I don’t know what I really want.” I stay looking at him, waiting.
“Daisy.” I feel my heart shatter, of course, he is refusing, he has Rosalie. I turn to walk away and he stops me. “I can’t do that.” His
words are soft.
“I get it, don’t worry Calix, I won’t even ask again.” I push past him, wiping my eyes as the door opens. Marcello looking furious. “Leave
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him, he explained. Not that it makes a difference.” I walk to Marcello.
“Daisy, don’t be like that.”
Turning I look at Calix. “Be like what? I was ready to accept your apology and let you back in but still somewhere in your fucking mind. you won’t touch me. Don’t worry, I won’t ask again, as I said, I don’t want you to feel forced into touching me. I guess me drinking all day, and you seeing me drowning just to turn to Rosalie and fuck her proves how little you care.”
“Come on Cub, we will sort it later.” Marcello whispers in my ear but Calix heard and moves to grab me.
“No, we sort it now!” He shouts and pushes Marcello away. “Yes I saw you drowning and I thought that was better than you getting beaten or anything else from our enemies. My mistake, I now know that was wrong, and I should have stopped. I just told you I love you, but still you push me away like I didn’t just pour my fucking heart out!” His words are screamed at me.
“Because you saying you love me, means nothing! Not now, You had proved it on my birthday, but things since wiped that out. How can you. say you love me but won’t touch me, yet you were all too eager to touch her.” I feel Marcello’s arm wrap around me.
“Maybe now isn’t the time.” His words are soft.
“I would, if you had given me a chance to explain. I didn’t say I wouldn’t touch you puddin, just not now. Before you make out like it’s because of you, no it’s me. I don’t feel like I should touch you like I have any right to. I fucked Rosalie, and even if you say you forgive me, if I touched you now that is fucked up because I don’t deserve you!” His words are loud, I watch as he walks out.
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“Cub.” Marcello sighs.
“I need to talk to him.”
“Okay, but cat first! Just come and eat, please.” He stands looking at me. “After the amount you have been drinking, the drugs, the throwing you and constant sleeping, please come cat.” His hand grasps my chin. “Then if you want I will tie him to a chair so he has no choice but to listen and talk without running. He runs a lot.” His smile is taunting and I nod.
I watch as he guides me out, sitting down we eat, there are no guards? I won’t even bother asking it will be a conversation that drains energy no doubt.
“He shouldn’t be near you.” Demitri seethes.
“Don’t!” My word is loud and they both look at me shocked. “You’re meant to be brothers, and you two hating him right now is wrong. He made a mistake, all of you did! Do you know why he came and spoke to me?” I look at them.
“No doubt to apologise and try to get you to let him back in,” Demitri grumbles and I laugh.
“No, he came to beg me not to hate you two or push you away. He told me he didn’t care about him as long as you two were happy. He came to me to get me to stop pushing you away, he went to leave and I brought up me and him. Not him!” They both look towards me shocked. “He’s your brother, and no doubt he would talk to you two about things right now if he could, but you won’t let him. Instead, your hate for yourselves is blinding you and blaming him for everything. So blame him, hate yourself, but do it away from me.” Standing I walk
away.
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I’m not a fool, I could see Calix was drowning, and a weight lifted. when I said I wouldn’t push them away, but he was still holding onto everything. Things he should be able to tell his brother. I hear a commotion and get out of bed, walking down Demitri and Marcello are standing with Troy.
“We will get him.” I stop hearing Marcello.
“Get who?” They turn to look at me, and I can see they are planning to hide something. “Don’t lie.” My words are harsh, I’m done with secrets.
“Cal, he went to fight. Stay here little birdie.” Demitri smiles and I shake my head.
“I’m coming.” I don’t care if I have to fight them, I will.
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