Chapter 89
I was sure Colin was ignoring me for a reason.
In the past, he’d treated me so well I shouldn’t make things difficult for him.
Thus, I didn’t call him again. Instead, I tried getting used to taking care of myself, I was scared that someone would say I was shameless once more.
I was using my way to maintain my pitiful dignity.
Actually, I thought about it before. No matter how great Colin treated me, he was still Felix’s brother. He wouldn’t have a fallout or draw a clear line with me for me and Felix.
In the past, when I was friends with Felix, I’d lost to love.
At this time, when I was friends with Colin, I lost to family.
Thinking about it, I was quite pitiful
It was fine during the day. Many people came and went by. My attention could be diverted.
the other hand, it was tough during the night. I had a lot of free time after dinner. I didn’t want my emotions to affect my roommates, so I sat somewhere in the corner of the campus. Usually, I would sit there for a few hours.
It was cold at the end of October. The cold wind made me numb.
On the fourth day after class, I saw Colin on campus. He was walking with Jasmine. I didn’t know what Jasmine said, but he showed a gentle smile.
I wanted to ask him where he had been for the past few days and why he didn’t answer my calls and
texts.
However, upon seeing Colin and Jasmine chatting happily, I was sure they didn’t want to be interrupted.
I turned around to leave.
At that time, I walked very slowly. My footsteps were heavy.
I was waiting for Colin to realize my existence. I wanted him to come after me and have meals like last
time.
On the fifth day, I came across Colin in the corridor. He still looked handsome. He wore a white shirt.
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When he saw me, he was slightly taken aback. Then, he frowned.
When I was about to speak, Jasmine approached Colin from behind. Colin glanced at me coldly before
leaving with Jasmine. The words I wanted to say were stuck in my throat. It was so painful that I wanted
to cry.
Nevertheless, I felt happy. At least, I had confirmed nothing happened to Colin. Since he was still on
campus, I could rest assured.
That day, I didn’t have dinner. I stayed outside and only returned to the dormitory when the curfew
almost hit.
I didn’t know what was wrong with me. When I saw Colin and Jasmine together, I wanted to cry.
But I knew things would end up this way. After all, I was their mailman.
When I was alone, I would wonder if I was wrong. If I didn’t pass the letter to Colin, would all of this not
have happened? Could I enjoy Colin’s care and pretend he would always be by my side? He didn’t need to
be in a relationship. In the future, he wouldn’t be like Felix and find a wife, making things difficult for me.
I didn’t know why I would have such thoughts. Maybe I had gone crazy.
The nightmarish days passed slowly. My head hurt so badly that I couldn’t eat. I always had dreams
when I was asleep, too.
I wanted to call my parents, but I was afraid that they would sense that something was wrong with me
and be worried. So, I could only endure the days alone.
Queenie said that I had lost weight, my eyes had lost their sparkle, and my chin had sharpened. She said
she felt sad looking at me.
I stared at myself through the mirror. My eye bags were dark, and my skin was gray. My breath had also
become light and faint.
I thought I had fallen ill. Otherwise, my headache wouldn’t have been so severe. I didn’t even have the
energy to walk. My sight turned black at times, too.
for two days
In the beginning, Queenie and Zoey said they would never tell me why Colin was angry. Later on, they kept telling me things. But I no longer wanted to listen. I only wanted to sit alone
somewhere quiet.