Chapter 373
As time went by, we realized the surgery had failed. Felix was unlucky enough to be part of the
10% fail rate
It meant he would be disabled. He wouldn’t be able to see or walk again. He would spend the rest of his life in a wheelchair, in complete darkness.
My worst fear became a reality.
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My parents were disappointed. Uncle Austin and Aunt Mel were heartbroken. Colin and I felt inexplicably desperate.
Did I have to owe Felix my whole life? No, I wouldn’t accept this fate!
I contacted Matthew anxiously. It was almost 9:00 pm. From the sound of it, I assumed he was having a social gathering.
Soon after he answered my call, the noise level from the other end of the phone quieted. He must have left the private room and chosen a secluded corner to speak with me.
He gently asked me what had happened. I told him about Felix’s situation and asked for his help to contact George.
Five minutes later, Matthew called back. He said that after George left the operating room, he had gone straight to the airport to return to his country. Then, George was in another country the next day to begin a three–month aid plan. During this period, no one could find him unless
he contacted the outside world.
George was our last hope. Now that he couldn’t be reached, we couldn’t figure out why Felix hadn’t regained sight.
Felix’s doctor had given him a thorough postoperative examination. His congestion no longer existed, and the state of his brain was no different from that of ordinary people. There should be no abnormality.
However, the fact was that Felix still couldn’t see anything
We couldn’t find George, so Felix’s condition was unclear. He could only live in the dark and had to be carried everywhere, including the bathroom.
Our hopes came crashing down. We felt as if we were plunged into hell. The situation this time was considerably more difficult because there was no hope.
I felt even more guilty.
Felix might have accepted his lameness and blindness after the accident, but it was I who gave him hope. The outcome was a disappointment instead. It might have given him an extra blow,
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leaving him devastated.
If I could go back in time, I would never make rash decisions again and stick to Colin’s arrangements.
I was immersed in regret every day, which caused me to lose weight rapidly. I lost my spirit and even suffered hair loss.
In addition to taking care of Felix, I spent the day painting. When I was exhausted, I only lay in a chair and slept. When I awoke, I continued to paint.
Colin couldn’t bear to see my weariness and took away my paintbrush repeatedly, forcing me
to rest.
A few times, I lay down obediently but couldn’t fall asleep. Colin was so anxious that he hugged me to sleep together.
I managed to doze off as his embrace put me at ease. However, he was busy and couldn’t accompany me every day. As soon as he left, I woke up and stared motionless at the ceiling.
Aunt Mel and Uncle Austin had stated that it was risky for me to push myself and I might
become ill.
So, they took turns speaking to me. They stated it was all fate and advised me not to carry such. a heavy burden. They didn’t blame me at all. Since Felix had been in misery, Colin needed to
live well.
Colin’s well–being depended on me. They asked me to cheer up, even if it was for him.
I understood their feelings, but who would understand mine?
Felix was already like this. I would have to care for him for the rest of my life as long as I was
alive.
What about Colin? What should I do widrum?
I said I’d be with Felix just to stop him from jumping off the building. I assumed I could resolve the problem. I believed I could still be with Colin once I found an excellent doctor to cure Felix