Chapter 356
“Say something, Lulu. Say something and I’ll be able to find you. Lulu…”
Felix’s hands flailed around in the air. I couldn’t bear to see his helplessness. The wounds and blood on his body only further pained me.
My heart felt like it was ripped apart. It hurt.
I broke free from Colin’s imprisonment and leaned down to carry Felix in tears. I told him that I was there and that we could talk properly once I put him in his wheelchair.
Felix grabbed my hand. He propped his upper body up in great difficulty and pulled me into a tight embrace. Crying but smiling, he said that I came to see him. He knew I wouldn’t abandon him. He also said that he loved me a lot and begged me not to leave him.
“Don’t leave me, Lulu. I only have you left in this world. Say something, Lulu. You still have feelings for me, don’t you? You won’t mind that I’m disabled now. You’ll stay by my side forever, right?”
I couldn’t say anything.
His embrace was cold. His bony frame stabbed into my body. He was so skinny, but he hugged me tightly.
He did not smell like a fresh orange anymore. He reeked of pain and desperation.
I did not want the hug, and I did not need the hug. But I couldn’t shove him away. He was in pain and despair. He struggled to just sit upright. And I was the one who gave him so much pain. How could I shove him away?
I didn’t want to hug him or shove him away, so all I could do was cry.
I wasn’t weak or hesitant. Anyone in a similar position would understand the moral dilemma I was facing. I was suffering as much as they did, if not more.
My heart wanted Colin, but Felix was my responsibility—a responsibility that I couldn’t shirk
What should I do?
Colin suddenly lashed out. He broke us apart and tossed Felix to the sofa. Then, he grabbed my wrist and stood up.
Before I could steady myself, he yelled at me, “Who said you could come here? You’re not
1/2
welcome. Leave!”
He was very strong. The force knocked my body against the wall, triggering my shoulder injury that hadn’t healed completely yet. The agony drained the color from my visage. I broke out into a cold sweat, and I couldn’t utter a word.
Seeing my distress, Colin snapped back from his fury. Guilt replaced his rage, and he opened his arms to hug me.
My shoulder was hurting. Colin’s outburst hurt my feelings too, but I didn’t blame him.
My mind was a mess. One moment, I saw the despair in Felix’s eyes. The next moment, I saw Colin’s pain. They were looking at me, waiting for me to make a choice.
Who should I pick? My love? My savior? Or myself?
I did not know. The answer eluded me.
My brain hurt. Screaming, I stormed out.
The number on the elevator kept increasing. When I arrived at the staircase, I heard Felix wailing loudly like a hopeless person and Colin calling out my name wistfully.
I stood at the staircase for five minutes until silence returned to the corridor.
Colin did not chase after me, and no one called me on my phone.
Colin, Felix, and I–friendship, love, and gratitude.
There was no right answer.