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Chapter 333
Where was the handsome, charming Colin that I used to know?
His clothes were crinkled, his hair was messy, he was unshaven, and his eyes were bloodshot.
How long had I been asleep? A century? How did Colin become an old man who looked like he had seen the terror of life?
The pain in my body was unbearable. I breathed in and out to soothe the pain. Squeezing a smile, I tried to console Colin, “I’m fine. No need to be so upset. It doesn’t hurt.”
Colin’s eyes turned red. He kneeled next to me and grabbed my unwounded hand. Then, he buried his face in it silently. Before long, warm liquid flowed through the cracks between my fingers, wetting my entire hand.
I had never seen Colin like this before.
My palm was soaked and warm.
“What about Felix? How is he?” I probed gingerly.
Colin lifted his head and croaked. I saw pain in his eyes. Tears still adorned the corners of his eyes. The mole under his eye was still as mesmerizing as ever.
Was Colin…
I sat up in disbelief. The pain cleared my mind, but it also made me feel the fear vividly. Something dreadful was slowly creeping toward my brain from my toes.
I tried to console myself and tell myself not to be afraid. Felix was fine. He wasn’t dead.
But that was a nasty accident. Another car might not have survived the impact either, let alone human flesh!
I shuddered.
If Felix lost his life when saving me, Aunt Mel and Uncle Austin would’ve lost a son. Colin would’ve lost a brother. What should I do?
I would owe my life to Felix forever. It was a debt that could never be repaid.
So please, Felix had to live.
My mind was a mess. I had never been this afraid before.
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What if Felix truly lost his life when saving me? I’d he beholden to him. I’d be beholden to him forever. I’d never be able to repay him
Guilt would torture me forever.
“Colin, tell me now. How is Felix? Is he dead? Tell me, Colin.”
I grabbed and shook Colin’s hands violently. My wounds were tearing me apart, but I couldn’t care less. I just wanted to know the answer. I just wanted to use the pain to forget the uneasiness I felt now.
I wanted to cry out loud, but my eyes were dry. Not a single teardrop could be squeezed out. The dread I felt continued to snowball. My limbs felt cold.
“Calm down, Lulu. You’re wounded. Lulu, Lulu!” Colin made sure not to touch my wounds as he tried to comfort me.
But rationality was lost on me. I refused to take any advice. I only had one thing on my mind -how was Felix? Was he alive?
He was 23 years old! He shouldn’t die this soon. It wasn’t worth it to sacrifice his life to save
mine.
If my life came with the cost of Felix’s passing, I’d rather be the one dead.
Finally, sorrow and fear overcame me. I wailed.
Tears came gushing out of my eyes, but they did little to alleviate my misery.
I’d rather die than know he died to save me.
I didn’t want to owe him anything. I didn’t want to shoulder a debt I could never repay.
“Colin, just give me the answer. If you won’t, I’ll go out and find the answer myself.”
I was getting hysterical. I needed an outlet for the emotions I was feeling. I wanted to find out if Felix was alright so badly that I was going crazy.