Chapter 232
“The Luna of my memory is not one to give up so easily. Why have you become so passive? It feels like I don’t even recognize you, anymore. Show the power you had when you competed with me for first place in high school! There’s nothing you can’t do.” Felix smiled.
He turned slightly and peered at a small patch of grass not far ahead as if he were gazing at something else through it.
I smiled helplessly. “I’ve thought about it seriously. You and Lilac are a couple. It’s normal for her to be possessive.
“If I were to think about it from a different perspective, I wouldn’t want my boyfriend to be too close to other women too. She’s defending her right.
“Her approach may be incorrect, but her reason isn’t wrong. I can understand it. So, we still need to maintain a certain distance. That’ll be beneficial for both of us.
“Felix, regardless of the reason, she’s the woman you chose to be with. You’ve been together for several years now. Everyone knows you two are a couple. You promised her that you’d be her knight for life.
“Since you promised her your life, you should treat her well. Even if you and I are innocent, that’s not a reason for us to keep in contact privately. You should make her feel secure. Our decision to perform together wasn’t properly thought out in the first place.
“From now on, let us continue as before. We won’t contact each other privately, let alone. meet in person. I’d like to spend my days at Jesselton College quietly for the next three years.
Felix stared at me. After a long time, he said hoarsely, “Okay, but I have a small request. Can you agree to it?”
“As long as it’s something that I’m capable of and doesn’t violate my principles, I’ll agree.”
“I know that I may never have the opportunity to start over with you again, and that’s a pity. So, I want to complete this performance with you. After that, we won’t run into each other again. I want this performance to be the final page of our story. Will you please agree?”
The matter came up again. Sure enough, it was exactly as I expected.
Felix remained determined to perform together. I hesitated.
If I agreed with him, the conversation with Lilac would’ve been meaningless. She’d
undoubtedly accuse me of going against my word and coveting her boyfriend.
+35 BONUS
Although I had a clear conscience and didn’t care about her motives, that didn’t mean I could accept her criticism without taking it to heart.
Felix noticed my uncertainty and said, “Regardless of the reason, you never give up halfway. You enjoy playing guitar, so why bother with irrelevant people’s comments? Why take things so seriously and pass up such a great opportunity to perform?
“I know how much effort you’ve put into the performance. You know it even better. Wouldn’t it be a pity to give up now?
“I know you don’t like me, let alone Lilac. But you and she aren’t the same. You shouldn’t allow yourself to have regrets. Whether you hate or blame me, I’ll take it all. After all, it was my fault in the beginning. Not being able to share a future with you is my retribution.
“But I hope you’ll still be the woman you were at 18–the one who enjoys life and knows what you want. Lulu, please think about it carefully. Do you really want to pass up this opportunity? Will you regret giving up?”
I’d regret it. I knew myself well. Although I didn’t want to admit it, Felix’s remarks touched my heart.
I had the same thoughts. But I had to avoid suspicion due to the sensitive nature of our relationship.