Chapter 211
+35 BONUS
Colin staggered backward and leaned beside the cement railing. He took out a cigarette box from his pocket and lit one. Taking a deep puff, he slowly exhaled it.
“It may seem sudden to you. But I’ve been waiting for this opportunity for 20 years. You don’t know how painful it is for me to love you,” he said bitterly.
“When I first met you, you weren’t one year old yet. You were small, sweet–smelling, and soft. Your eyes were also big and round. I was scared to break you, so I only reached out a finger to brush your face. You actually smiled at me.
“I was only seven at that time and knew nothing. But your smile made me melt. At that time, I wanted you because I thought you were cute.
“Your smile was like a seed that was planted in my heart. It took root, sprouted, and became a little tree. I carefully nurtured it, fearing to hurt you in any way.
“When I was ten, I told my mom I wanted to marry you. But she told me that you were engaged to Felix before you were even born and lectured me not to talk nonsense.
“I don’t know if you can understand, but I felt absolutely devastated. I cried every night. Although I was young, I knew I could never marry you. Thus, I kept my love for you in my heart as I continued to look after you. You grew up to be cute, energetic, and extremely beautiful.
“I felt myself falling for you even more. As I was scared I couldn’t hold myself back and might hurt you, I used the excuse that I was busy with my studies to only return home once a year.”
After finishing the cigarette, Colin flicked away the butt. Then, he rubbed his face with his
hands. There was a touch of weariness to his hoarse voice.
I rarely saw him after I turned 15 years old. At that time, my mother and Melinda often said he was very busy, so I also thought he was busy with his studies.
Finally, I understood that he was trying to escape from me.
When I was busy pursuing Felix, Colin was suffering so badly.
It seemed that I had hurt his feelings just now.
I beat myself over it in my heart.
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I suppressed the anxiousness in my heart and tiptoed over to him. I quietly listened to the things I didn’t know about him.
“You seemed happy with Felix. Although you were right beside me most of the time, you wouldn’t even look at me. During your final year of high school, I’d always ask around to know which college you applied to.
“Mom, Felix, and even Aunt Melinda told me you applied to Jesselton College. Honestly, I wished that you could study at Lincoln University. That way, I could see you and accompany
you as you grew up.
“When the results came out, I knew you’d definitely go to Jesselton College. You could easily get into it with your results, after all. When I heard you were going to Lincoln University, I was ecstatic. I had never been so happy in my entire life. I got drunk that evening for the first time as I was so happy.
“Lulu, I won’t blame you whether or not you choose to accept me. After all, you gave me three years to accompany you. I spent the past three years in happiness, and that’s enough. for me. Don’t feel pressured. If you really want to get together with Felix, I can help you. I’ll feel happy if you are.