Chapter 210
No! They were brothers!
I had a sudden realization and quickly pushed him away with my hands. “Colin, give me some time to think this through.”
Disappointment briefly flashed on his face, but a smile quickly took its place. “Okay, you have five seconds to think this through. If you don’t say no, I’ll take it as a yes. One, two, three, four, five. Time’s up! You didn’t say no, so from now on, I’m your boyfriend!
“Congratulations, Luna. You’re no longer single.”
Before I could react, Colin leaned in once again. I could smell his warm breath on me, and I panicked.
My mind was messy. My limbs acted on their own as I began to thrash about.
At first, Colin tried to contain me. But as my movements became more and more violent, he
let
go. He was afraid that I might get hurt.
Colin, standing there like a Prince Charming, slowly put down his arms. His straight back was slightly hunched, as if he was in pain. The glimmer in his eyes dimmed until there was nothing.
The corners of his lips curled into a wry smile as he forced himself to console me, “Lulu, I… I was just joking with you. There’s no need to be afraid.”
I staggered backward. Only when I felt safe enough in the distance I had created that I lifted my head to look at him.
Colin was still smiling. His face was as handsome as usual. But there was no light in his eyes, only hurt and disappointment.
I reached where my heart was. For some reason, it hurt.
For a moment, I didn’t have it in me to see the sad Colin. I preferred to see the Colin who would always greet me with a smiling face, the one who pampered me unconditionally.
“Please don’t hate me, Lulu,” said Colin seriously as he gazed at me. I thought I saw something that shouldn’t be on him–desperation.
It reminded me of how desperate I was during Thanksgiving when I was 18 years old. I had offered my heart to Felix, only to have it trampled by him cruelly.
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I was heartbroken.
Perhaps what they said was true–the first one to fall in love would always suffer more.
I never wanted to make Colin suffer. And I never wanted to disappoint him.
However, I wasn’t ready to date him.
So please, Colin. Give me some time.
Once I thought everything through, I would give him my answer.
“I don’t hate you, Colin.” Colin’s expression made me feel guilty. I wanted to soothe the creases between his brows. “You caught me by surprise. I need time to think this through.”
Afraid of seeing the pain in Colin’s eyes, I lowered my head. I kicked the pebbles on the ground with the tip of my shoes to hide my unease.
A lot of things were going through my mind. I was overwhelmed by so many emotions. Just like that, tears came gushing out of my eyes.
I bit my lip to force myself not to make any noise, and I berated myself for being a coward deep down. Whenever something happened, crying was my only response.
Colin noticed that I was weeping. He wanted to hug me, but he was worried that I might fight back violently like I did previously. Anxious, he could only console me verbally by telling me that he wouldn’t force me at all.
But I couldn’t control my tears. They came gushing out incessantly.