Chapter 77
LAYLA
In the next few days, Alex and Levi plan things out to attack Cleodore while I can’t do anything but watch Serafina and her mate from afar silently while protecting my Baby from them.
Sometimes, I end up expecting Alex to lose his interest in me and go back to the way he was to me before. But that moment never comes. He sleeps beside me and Ayla in his bed every night and wakes up snuggling in my chest.
During the day, he continues to drag me to corners to f u k me quickly. Sex with him is beginning to turn me into his d i r t y w o r e. My body recognizes his stance and my core drenches the moment he touches me and tells me he needs to be inside
me.
Every time we are done having sex, he kisses my face, and my body and caresses me like a gentle lover. That side of Alex is completely contrary to the side he shows me when we are f u c k n g like animals.
I can’t complain though. I like it when he takes hold of my senses during or after sex. And when he tells me he loves me, my heart joins the silent struggle against him.
My doubts
are slowly starting to fade away and the reality is beginning to scare me. Alex wants me as his Luna. A Luna- -That’s a big responsibility,
I sigh and shake my head. Daphne says I shouldn’t think about it ahead of time and just do my best in everything. That’s what I think too.
But first of all, I need to talk to Theo who refused to pick up any of my calls or answer my texts. It’s unlike him to ignore me. However, it feels like he is either drowning in guilt or he knows we are over before beginning
My heart aches for my genuine friend. I don’t want this thing between us to affect our friendship. I tried with him—really did. But I don’t feel drawn to him in that way despite telling myself that he is the best man for all the women in the world.
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Alex has called him in to talk about the plan. He wanted to help and I am so glad that Alex is letting him help in this
Earlier, they talked in the office while I waited for him. But instead of coming to me, he went to Ayla to spend time with her. So, I am waiting again.
My head lifts when I hear the familiar footsteps drawing near. He appears in the doorway and halts.
Hi, Theo. I smile.
I can’t help but notice the grown stubble on his face. His eyes have lost some of the shine that was a part of his identity. A family can really ruin you. On top of that, I as his friend am about to hurt him.
But it’s necessary. I can’t keep him in the dark forever.
Layla. He attempts to smile but his lips don’t coordinate with his decision.
In the end, he sighs and walks towards the couch opposite me. He takes his seat as I straighten up and observe him closely.
“How have you been doing?” He asks, averting his gaze to the wall behind me.
I take notice of the dark circles under his eyes. My heart misses a beat. He is really having a hard time.
I am good, Theo. “I whisper, clasping my hands together.
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He licks his lips but doesn’t answer.
Why are you avoiding me, Theo? “I ask, squeezing my fingers,
“I wanted to delay this. “He locks at me.
I strengthen my resolve and will myself to not crumble under his dead stare. Something is terribly wrong with Theo. I can feel it. But I can’t do anything to help him.
I am sorry, I tried, Theo. I wanted to be with you. “I mumble, my eyes beginning to burn..
But you love Alpha Alexander.” He says, making me stiffen.
No. L-
“I know you, Layla. I know the way you look at him. He cuts in, not giving me the chance to deny my feelings.
I am sorry, Theo. “My mouth turns bitter.
Why are you sorry? Are you apologizing for loving him?” He places his hands over his knees and leans back.
* I am sorry because I can’t see you like that, Theo. I told myself we could be together as a couple but I couldn’t do it. And I have been keeping you on hold when I was with Alex. I am really sorry. Please forgive me if you can. “I utter, my throat. becoming heavy with all the emotions I am trying to swallow.
How do you expect me to not forgive you, Layla? It’s cruel. I really love—“He trails off, shaking his head and refraining from voicing out those emotions.
Tears well in my eyes. I wipe them away before I cry in front of him pathetically.
“I want to be like those villains in the movies. Maybe I should s n a c h you away and lock you in a tower to keep you with me.
He grins all of a sudden.
“You wout do it. “I shake my head.
His grin falls.” I won’t do it, Layla. Because I care about you and I know even if I lock you up and force you to be with me, your heart will always beat for Alpha Alexander. So there is no point. I never wanted your body. I just wanted you to love me.
My heart misses several painful beats all at once.” I am a disappointment to you.”
You would have been a disappointment to me if you had tried to deny your feelings for him and pretended to love me. I wouldn’t have been able to bear that. I care about you. And it means I have to let you go where you will be truly happy. I wish you happiness, Layla. You mean a lot to me so don’t be sad in this life. That’s how you can avoid being a disappointment to me.” He gets up, approaches me, and crouches down in front of me.
Does this mean we are done? We can’t be friends? “I whisper, looking into his eyes.
Losing him will be a big blow to me and Ayla. I don’t want that. I don’t want this one friend to leave me who once stood by me when I was in desperate need of someone’s support.
* Do you want to be friends?” He questions and cups my cheek to wipe the stray tear that slips out of my eye.
Yes. I don’t want you gone, Theo. I want you in my life. So, please. Please, don’t leave me.” I grab his hand instinctively.
Nothing will make me leave you, Layla. You and I—we have seen some bad days. So, we will always be together as friends. Whenever you need me, all you have to do is to call me and I will be there for you without asking any questions. That’s a promise.” He whispers softly.
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I press my lips into a thin line and lean into his palm. I don’t know why but it feels like a goodbye to what we used to be. We might not be the same anymore. He will have to move on from me and for that, he might want to stay away and I understand if he wants that in the future..
However, if it’s the last time we will be this close, then there is something I must tell him before it’s too late.
“What your brother did or does is not your fault, Theo. It will never be your fault.” I squeeze the back of his hand.
I have to shoulder the responsibility as his brother. It might not be my fault but it’s my fate.” He pulls himself away from me and rises to his feet.
The look in his eyes is so determined and dark right now that I am left speechless. He lost himself, there is no denying it. His brother stole a part of his soul and he will never recover.
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1 hope you find happiness and find someone who will cherish the kind man you are, Theo. “I utter in a soft voice.
He gives me a sad smile and turns away before walking out of the sitting area without saying a word.
As I watch him leave that day, my wish for his happiness becomes a silent prayer. Moon Goddess has to be lenient with him too. He deserves every bit of the goodness of this world and not the wickedness that is imposed on him.