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We eat in silence, and my body is still shaking. I need to ask him about her, Hayley, and why she would show up saying things. I’m not sure I want to hear the answers though.
“Other than the visitor baby girl, did you get much done today?” He looks at me and I nod, maybe taking my mind off it all will help?
“I ordered the pram, and cot, and other things, daddy.”
He looks at me shocked. “Really?”
I laugh at how shocked he is. “You’re busy trying to get my dad out, so I figured I could get it all sorted while you do. Then I have something to do. We do need to work together to pick a name though.” That I won’t do alone.
“Okay, here.” He grabs a pen and paper and places them on the table. “Any ideas for names?” He looks at me and I shake my head. “How about Harley?”
I laugh. “Do you have a death wish, can you remember me growing up?”
“You were wild yes, but strong and unafraid, of even me remember. I couldn’t even steal your fucking ice lolly.” He laughs and I join in. “Look, your dad chose Harley for you. It was just an idea. Any other names?” He looks at me and I think.
Taking the pen and paper I begin to write down names.
Raven, Willow, Harper, Luna, Destiny, Sapphire.
I turn the paper to him and he reads. “Okay, so we agree, no names such as Jane, Emily or Laura. We want something different.” He looks at me and I nod. I watch as he writes something and turns the paper back to me.
“Damiana?” I haven’t heard that one before.
“It’s the girl variant for Damon and Damien.” He smiles and I in my head, I like it. It’s unique and is linked to my dad.
repeat it
“I like it, daddy.” I smile and he does. “So middle name?” He groans at my words.
“We will think baby girl, let’s not push it for one night, we did good there it didn’t take us nine months.” He laughs and I join in. I want to avoid it but I can’t.
“Who is Hayley?” It wasn’t the woman he was engaged to, but she seemed obsessed with him.
“Hayley is a submissive I had before Danielle, she had a contract as my submissive a few times after on and off. She was one of the submissives I cut off when I gave you the contract baby girl, then everything went crazy and I saw her again, but it felt wrong so I cut it off again. I haven’t spoken to her in three months.”
So she is someone he keeps going back to? Why does that have me worried?
“Baby girl, I can see that look. She was a submissive, nothing more. I can show the contracts which show she was never exclusive, I had other submissives as well. She just shows up and I agree.” He shrugs but I sense there’s something else.
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“And, there’s more you’re not saying, Daddy.”
“Look baby girl, I married April, and she had an affair. Danielle lied and cheated. I stuck to submissives for a while, two years later I dated Ruby. We were exclusive, I held myself back through fear but slowly let her in more and trusted her only to find out she was seeing someone else. I wasn’t enough, Hayley is right about that. As a dominant yes, submissives stay but relationships? No one seems to actually want that and stay and be faithful so her coming back and reminding me of that and reminding me she stays makes me agree.”
I move around and straddle him. I don’t think he realises but I got a lot from that, more than he probably expected. “You are enough. Did I go elsewhere? No, even when I went to see James, and he offered himself up I refused.” I wrap my arms around his neck.
“Baby girl, you are not even twenty–five, and I am hitting forty. Even I know soon I won’t be enough for you.” I move and look at him.
“You are though. Do you think the only reason I am with you is because of the sex, and the power behind it? No, I like that you look after me without even being here. I like that every time you wrap your arms around me I feel safe. You’re enough, those women just didn’t see it like I do.” His hands slide down my back and grasp my ass.
“Sorry baby girl, I just don’t get how the hell this turned out this wat
way. You should be with someone like James. Someone at least within ten years of your age.” He smiles and I laugh.
“They suck, we established I like my men older.” I grin and he groans. “Also, Daddy.” He looks at me as I look at him seriously now. “Stop listening to her. Joel used to tell me that those who loved me hurt me, reminding me of past relationships that ended badly where they had said they loved me. I got it into my head that if someone said they
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loved me they would soon hurt me and use me. She is doing that with you, making you feel like you aren’t enough for others, just so you let her back in.”
He might not notice it, but I do. She is in a way using his mental state and manipulating him into thinking he can do no better than her.
“We’re as bad as each other baby girl.” His words are quiet.
I laugh.“I thought I was worse than you Daddy? Guess I need to step it up a notch as I should get more punishments than you.” I move and wiggle against him.
“You know I didn’t mean in that way, baby girl. Now stop wiggling, before I fuck you.” Well, he said stop wiggling, not stop teasing. I move and push down against his cock hearing him groan. His hands capturing my hips.
“Christmas tree baby, real or fake?” He looks at me and I laugh.
“That was a quick topic change, Daddy.”
“No, it was the plan but you put it off. What sort of tree do you want, I need to know.” His hands don’t release my hips and ensure I can’t
move.
“Real daddy.”
“Okay, I will get one delivered baby girl. I’m out early again. What else needs sorting for the baby?” Sitting I show him what I ordered and he talks about the baby’s room. We look at different things that we need to do it. Agreeing to get someone from the club to come and decorate the
room.