Chapter 65
-CLARA-
By the time I woke up, it was late at night and I couldn’t feel Damon’s presence.
“You are awake” I heard a
a quiet voice and when the speaker came into view, my eyes widened slightly. It was Damon’s mother.
I wasn’t comfortable around her anymore after finding out that she had been the first one to be against me. She had tried encouraging Damon to get another wife according to the gossip I heard from the maids.
“Do you feel better? Your phone was ringing but I didn’t want it disturbing you so I turned it off. I hope that’s okay?” She questioned and ! nodded slowly but didn’t say a word, I didn’t need to say anything because the guilty look on her face as she stared at me told me that what those Maids had said weren’t baseless rumors.
“I think I need to clear up the air with you first because I’ve not been able to look at myself in the mirror without feeling disgusted with myself. When I found out you were barren, as a mother I was angry, I was fuming with anger so I called you a gold digger and asked Damon to find himself another wife” She uttered then turned to me maybe to see if I had a reaction but I just stared blankly at her and that made her sigh
“You have to understand where I’m coming from, Clare, I know for a fact that you and Damon had a conversation about children before you got married and you not telling him you were barren only made me think that you married him for money and for power so I let my anger consume me but Delilah’s words were able to get through me and I realized they I was wrong. Throughout the times I’ve spent with you and seen the way you were with my son, I realize that your feelings for each are pure and I was just being bitter, I really want Damon to have a family and ever since you came into his life, he has changed for the better and I want to thank you for that” She murmured and I sighed.
“At first I married Damon for money so you’re not totally wrong but I fell for him along the line and the only reason I didn’t tell him I was barren was because I was scared he was going to leave me or reject me and I’ll be all alone. I never had a family and a family is something Iso dearly want. Coming into Damon’s life, I finally felt like I wasn’t alone anymore and that I could finally have the family I wanted despite not being able to give him a child. I was so scared that if I told him, that dream of having a family would disappear and I was right. Damon turned against me and everyone immediately shunned me out” I murmured and tried my best to keep my tears at bay.
I’ve been trying not to feel, I’ve been forcing myself to feel numb to everything but I could feel tears brewing and very soon, I was going to explode.
“I have no excuses for my behavior and can only tell you how sorry I am. Delilah was right, having children is one of the greatest joys of a woman and instead of me judging and condemning you, I should have tried to understand you and that’s my wrong and I apologize for that but please give Damon a chance. Ever since you came into his life, he has changed for the better despite how much he tries to deny it. You’re good for him but you need to understand that he hasn’t changed completely. Damon is the kind of person that hates betrayal more than anything and I would know that because I’m still paying for betraying him years ago. He still hasn’t been able to let go. The way he acted towards you wasn’t because he didn’t like you but because he felt betrayed by you. He was really restless and unhappy during the times you guys weren’t together but he’s a very stubborn man like his father and they don’t like showing their weakness and I’m afraid his weakness is you, Clara. He tried to fight it but he cares for you deeply even more than he cares for me, Delilah or even his father. I’m not trying to say what he did want wrong but as his mother who cares for his happiness, I’m asking you to give him another chance” She murmured and I couldn’t stop the tears that slipped down my cheeks.
“Because of how broken I was without him, I hadn’t noticed I was pregnant. If I had known I was pregnant, I would have protected our child with my life but I didn’t. You have no idea how long I’ve been wanting a child and it was tragically taken away from me before I could even realize it and I’m trying not to but I blame him for it I murmured and she frowned.
“Look deep inside you and you’ll know that you are both at fault. If you had checked yourself and if you had told Damon the truth earlier on, things could have been different. If you guys had been together, nothing like this would have happened. Yes Damon has a fault in the death of your child, we all do but you do too and I don’t think it’s fair to put the blame on him. Damon lost his child too, he’s probably already blaming himself and if you blame him as well, I’m afraid he’s going to shut down and I don’t want that to happen so please, please give him another chance” She begged and I frowned and opened my mouth to say something when Damon suddenly barged into the room and my
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eyes widened when I saw Aunt Amelia.
“Aunt Amelia…” I called out softly as she rushed towards me and wrapped her arms around me.
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“I’m so sorry, my love. I can’t believe you were pregnant all along” She murmured as she cried on my shoulder and that broke the little resolve I had.
I cried bitterly in her arms as everything suddenly came crashing down on me. I had just lost my first child, I hadn’t even gotten the chance to hold the baby. I hadn’t even met him or her.
I had failed them, I had failed my child!
looked up slightly and my eyes connected with Damon’s and the sadness behind his broke me.
As he stepped forward, Aunt Amelia slowly let go of me and when he leant down to hold me, I immediately buried myself in his arms and held onto him tightly as my tears grew even more frantic.
He patted my back lovingly while murmuring reassuring words in my ears but I could hear the sadness in his voice. He sounded so broken that it made my heart ache.
My arms tightened around him and I snuggled into his arms. What he had done was wrong and I knew I should stand my ground and give him space but at that moment, being in his arms felt so righ
He was my safe space…