Chapter 4 – Agonizing Guilt “Maybe there’s more we all could have done, but we just have to let the guilt remind us to do better next time.“– Veronica Roth Present Time “You would have been best friends with her wolf, Artemis.” Sizzling pain swam through my heart, caging in a prison of agony. That was one of my favorite moments I shared with Nuria two months before she died. We had plans for our future. We had plans once we shifted for the first time. Our lives were made for us! “You and Angelika would have been as close as sisters…like we were.” “Oh, Kiya…” Artemis spoke softly. Her voice caressed me as hot tears swam down my cheeks. Each droplet carried a “what–if; what if Nuria was still alive? What if the rogues never came? What if I had listened to Steven? What if we had shifted together? What–if after what–if splashed on the ground near my toes, disintegrating into tiny droplets of broken dreams. A broken future. “Her death wasn’t your fault. I would have loved to meet Angelika, but that’s not possible. You miss her terribly; I can feel it from your heart. That’s a beautiful memory you have of her. Treasure that.” “But Artemis… I took that from you. I took Angelika from you. I never gave you the love of a close friend like Nuria had given me. We’ve been friends since we were in the crib. She made me happy, and how did I repay her? By selfishly pulling her into my adventure, forgetting rogue sightings. They tore her away from me and I watched her get mauled to death. I couldn’t do anything! I couldn’t…! All the pain I thought I solved overflowed from its burial chambers like a clogged sink; the fluidity of agony filling me faster than air. No matter how hard I try, the guilt eats me like. Gobbling my heart with its sharp teeth piercing and tearing at each chamber. Many years after Nuria’s death, I still feel responsible. The misplaced blame of the angel’s death is not misplaced when I’m unable to free myself from its tormenting hold. It killed me daily with every memory I have of Nuria. For my sake, I tried to push those memories away. Bu Burn them, toss them, drown them as much as I could so I didn’t selfishly have to feel the searing pain. accompanied by their arrival. Nuria’s smile is still as real as if she were alive today. I still remember the silkiness of her ebony tresses, the golden hue of her skin, the sparkling cerulean of her eyes, and her angelic aura. It’s all real like she’s standing in front of me, ready to take my hand to our latest bout of mischief. I reach out hoping to touch an ember of warmth, only to be met with a blade of deep–seated guilt slicing through my palm. It made its home and hearth inside my broken mind, I wish I can apologize. I wish I can take back my actions that day. I wish I was buried in the cemetery while. she and her mother lived their best lives. Perhaps Luna Essie would have birthed more children or Nuria would have found her mate or went off to college. The future set up for them shattered to pieces by my selfishness and forgetfulness on that fateful day. I can’t even utter her name without my throat closing up and bile rising to my throat. Tears continue to bucket down my eyes, burning my cheeks with their searing heat. Why do I deserve this life? These avatar powers? This status as a warrior? How do I deserve any of this when I took away the hearts of the two purest people I’ve ever known? Neron look at me? How does he look at me with love despite the knowledge that I’m the last person to see his for and mother alive? They were killed while I helplessly watched. It’s me, still alive and breathing while they lay cold six feet underground” Nuria was only nine years old Heide hadn’t began, and it got stuffed out. Why did I convince her to come with me? Why did I make that choice to be daring and adventurous? Why did I do that? deserved it. I deserved everything. I deserved the beatings. I deserved the starving, I deserved the neglect. I deserved the – Dropping on my bare knes. I cconised into sobs of regret and remorse. I didn’t care who heard me. My pain is punishing me for a decade–old sin, and I deserved it. I deserved every moment. I didn’t know how long I med I didn’t know how many tears I’ve shed over this memory of my best friend and my self-bred in the involvement of their passing. Suddenly, a powerful scent of sandalwood and ginger clouded my nose, burying in the crook of a neck. My throat burned with sobs and my sinuses sunk into Neron’s scent as he held my quivering body. Even now, as I cry with his family picture to my chest, he expresses love. Concern, Care. All for an undeserving woman Ta scary. I’m sure. To so sty_“I walked into Nero’s chest as he rubbed circles on my arm and back. It only made me cry harder. Tim sorry…. “It’s not your faul Kaya The Alpha whispered into my hair. “You didn’t kill them. It was never your fault Stop blaming yourself, please.” “Yes, it was!” I retorted. “It’s because of me Nuria’s gone…” “No! The fault is on my uncle and his jealous rage! He lost his ways and took it out on two innocent people! He’s the rightful recipient of all the blame, Kiya. He killed them, not you. You didn’t know what would happen. Kya, you were a child. A child who wanted to have fun with her best friend. That’s all. If anyone should apologize, it should be me.” My body jerked with sniffles and hiccups, but I said nothing “I for the longest time, believed you were responsible. Grief and anger blinded me. I lost my mother and my sister, and it hurt it hurt so bad, and I hurt you because of it. I never took your word and branded you as a murderer. If Kwame hadn’t slapped me in the face with evidence, and if I didn’t hear it from the mouth of my wretched uncle, I wouldn’t have believed it. I wouldn’t have believed your innocence, and that made me a monster. I didn’t believe a little girl and put he through years of terror.” Neron lifted my face from his chest to look into my red, puffy eyes. Goddess, I must look like an absolute mess because he has tears beginning to fall on his handsome face. The urge to reach up and wipe then away is strong, but I resisted “I’m sorry, Kiya. I’m truly, unequivocally sorry for hurting you. I’m sorry that you had to carry this weight for so long, waiting for others to take responsibility. I’ll never stop apologizing. I know they won’t change the past. It won’t change that I’ve raised my hand against you. But I’ll change the future for us, whatever that may be. As long as you’re here, no one will hurt you. I’ll make sure you stay safe up to your departure from my territory.” Neron’s thumbs continuously failed to wipe the tears from my cheeks, but he doesn’t stop trying. When one tear is wiped away, three more fall. It’s a never–ending cycle of misery. He looks into my eyes, deeply, despite my vision cloudy his form into a swirl of color. Heavy warmth radiates from his hand and sunk deep into my skin, begging me to remove the guilt that plagued me for years, “Don’t believe him.” A foreign voice said in my head. ‘He’s still a monster. He still hurt you. He deserves nothing but suffering and misery for the years he brutalized you? Neron and I stared into each other’s eyes for a while. Silent messages passed through the small space between our faces. Blue shifted in shade; dark to light and light to dark. There’s no sense of malice or deception in his words. He intends on keeping me safe. He intends on changing. But is it safe for me to open up my heart and trust in him? “No. It isn ‘T.” 1…I don’t know… We can’t have any emotional connection. I made that clear. It’ll make our separation painful. Everything fucking hurts. Why is this so complicated?! Everything still hurts even when Neron pulls me into a bone–crushing hug. He’s muttering soothing words in my ear that failed to penetrate the prison surrounding my heart. I can’t get myself to admit that I didn’t hold a role in Nuria and Luna Essie’s deaths. I guess that’s why I’ve been in therapy for so many years because there’s still a lot I have yet to heal from. I know this is Neron and I sharing a moment of vulnerability. I’ve never felt this exposed to someone before, especially someone that I harbored hatred for a long time. But that didn’t matter at the moment. I just needed someone to hug me.
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Untouchable (The Moonlight Avatar Series Collection) Novel – 1
“N-no! It’s not like that!” I pleaded, tears swimming down my face. “I don’t want this! You have to believe me, please!” His large hand violently grabbed my throat, lifting me off the ground effortlessly. His fingers trembled with every squeeze, tightening the airways vital for my life. I coughed; choked as his anger burned through my pores and incinerated me internally. The amount of hate Neron holds for me is strong, and I knew there was no getting out of this alive. “As if I’ll believe a murderer!” Neron’s voice is shrill against my ears.
Book 2 of the Moonlight Avatar Series
There is more than just history and bad blood between Neron Prince, Alpha of the Zircon Moon Pack, and Kiya Guerrero, the mate he cast aside—darkness is falling. A shadow born of anger, resentment, and betrayal is clouding Kiya’s judgment and perhaps any chance Neron has left to reach her heart. Walking on his difficult path toward redemption, Neron is determined to prove to those around him that he is a changed man, even if all his efforts seem in vain.
However, as they often do, shadows often take a physical form—and in the malevolent presence of Osiris, a hybrid vampire, more than just Neron’s feelings are threatened. He has eyes for Kiya. Armed with honeyed words and seductive promises of chaos, Osiris lures Kiya into his dark web, hellbent on using her to destroy the pack who wronged him. As ravenous as she is for vengeance and retribution, will Kiya withstand the pull towards darkness? Even as she becomes unhinged, like a moth to a flame, Neron is drawn to save her: from Osiris and herself. Can they each fight back against the pressures that are driving them apart and towards the brink? Or will the call of the wild finally tear their bond for good…
This book is suited for adult readers, as the subject matter addresses sensitive topics including: mentions of sexual assault, violence, mentions of death and abuse, and trauma. Reader discretion is heavily advised.
Unbreakable
Book 3 of the Moonlight Avatar Series
Three years ago, Osiris was defeated triumphantly and his dark reign came to an abrupt end.
Compelled to heal and find hope again, Neron and Kiya forge different paths for the time being. When his treasured loved ones return, Neron’s heart is nursed back to health, and he finds a different purpose: becoming the Alpha of his newly-formed pack, Onyx Moon.
Little does he know that this is not the last he has seen of Kiya. Following her recovery from this dark, sinister influence, Kiya discovers her true self as the avatar of Selene, reaching goddesshood. What she does not know is that the world is about to be turned upside down once more.
When an ancient enemy makes another appearance, the very fate of the moon’s avatar is threatened. Apophis won’t stop until he gets revenge and annihilates the woman he blames for his misfortune, heaven, and earth be damned.
This unexpected calamity brings Neron and Kiya together again, and their emotions remain as strong and undeniable as ever. As imminent danger looms over their lives, they can’t help but wonder: Could giving in to their bond and letting it blossom be the last thing they’ll get to do? Or will they die before its fruition?
This book is suitable for adult readers, as the subject matter includes sexual content and addresses sensitive topics, such as violence and trauma. Reader discretion is advised.
Book 3 of the Moonlight Avatar Series
Chapter 3 – Lost Memories “Memory loss is one way of coping with damage.“– Jeanette Winterson Kiya It’s nearly noon when I woke up. Guess I needed that sleep. But everything feels weird. Here I am, sitting at the foot of Neron’s bed, staring at my reflection in his vanity. Can I attribute my restful sleep to Neron’s scent? Or the fact I’m in his room? Hard to say, especially since I’m covered in it. And I can’t say it’s a bad thing. He smells nice. But there’s one thing that bothered me. The sparks. They aren’t as powerful as they used to be. Back at the couch, when his fingers brushed against my arm, I felt them but, they’re weak. When he tucked me in the bed and touched my face, the sparks weakened that I barely noticed them. I’m used to the weakness in the sparks of our mate bond, but this time, everything felt foreign. Abnormal. A dull pain throbbed on the side of my neck. It made itself noticeable through the panging underneath my epidermis. It’s also the same area where Osiris bit and drank from me those weeks ago. A profound effect of the bite still exists long after his death. Vampires are more skilled than I originally thought. He’s dead. He’s gone. And yet, he continues to fester in my mind. Why? “Ugh…” Scratching my head, I hopped on my bare feet and took in the Alpha’s room once more. Neron has everything in his room than an adult male ever dreams of and then some. The color scheme of blue, black, and red fits him in strange ways. This is the first time I’ve ever been in his room and I felt out of place. Like I shouldn’t be here. But my feet remained rooted against the soft carpet. Because of my damn curiosity. As the humans say, curiosity killed the cat, and satisfaction brought it back. Good thing I’m not a cat! Rubbing my arms, I noticed picture frames settling on top of his drawers and hanging shelves. Some of them are him and his father. Some are him with Valerian and Kwame. Some are from what I assume are special occasions, like parties and his birthday. One, however, captured my attention the most. It’s a picture, the frame in pristine silver with no blemishes or flaws, standing prominently from them all. It’s a frame that Neron took care of the most; dust accumulated on the others, but not this one. It’s a beautiful picture of Luna Essie and Nuria. Nuria is settled on her mother’s lap. Both show off their biggest and brightest of all their smiles; cheerfulness compartmentalized in their matching sapphires. A happy picture meant to invoke joy invoked pain in me. Pulsating to the rapid thumping of my heart. My fingers, trembling, brushed on top of Nuria’s photo. My first best friend. A memory I thought was long forgotten rises from the depths of my mind. In a flash, I’m plunged into a powerful episodic memory where I can smell Nuria’s scent of pomegranate, feel the soft lushness of her coal- black hair, and see her smile. Oh, that beautiful innocent smile.. The smile that improved my days, Flashback Third Person POV Two nine–year–old girls poked their tiny heads from the corner leading into the pack house kitchen. The smell of freshly baked brownies and cookies wafted into the air, beckoning the children to eat them without a care in the world. Nuria’s crystal blue eyes trained right on its target; the plateful of treats resting on the island behind Lead Omega Cassandra, who’s cleaning the dishes. “Are you sure this is a good idea?” Halima asked her friend. “We can get in trouble with our parents.” “Not if we give them our smiles and puppy eyes!” Nuria exclaimed proudly. “And if we run away into the woods after. Besides, Miss Cassandra makes the best brownies in the world! One bite and you don’t have to worry about that one kid breaking your honeybee necklace.” Halima grumbled softly, “I would have hit them, but Daddy always says never to hit people without a reason. Only hit if they try to hurt you.” “…But you had a reason.” Nuria retorted with a shrug. “Yeah, but I didn’t want to get in trouble.” Shaking her head with bouncing curls, the young Beta pointed to the plate. “What’s the plan?” “I’ll distract Miss Cassandra.” The young Alpha explained. “You sneak from behind and quietly take the plate and run for your life. It’s simple!” “But what about milk?” The other girl asked. “You can’t eat cookies and brownies without milk. It’s like eating spaghetti without cheese!” “Ugh, always thinking of other things we got to do.” Nurla groaned, pondering in thought for a few seconds. In the end, she threw caution to the wind. “Forget about the milk. We’ll get it another time. We have a mission to complete, Hall! Operation Cookie Snatcher is in full effect!” Halima gave Nuria a face of unease and incredulously. “Really? You made up that name just now, did you?” “Yep. Now, let’s go!” Their sneaky plan begun. Nuria hobbled in with her short stature and grabbed Lead Omega Cassandra’s attention. As the Alpha’s daughter had her distracted, Halima, barefooted, snuck inside. The Island is too high for her to reach, so she had to use the chair available near it. Luckily, the Beta’s daughter didn’t have to move it. With quick haste, she climbed the chair, grabbed the plate in silence, hopped off, and escaped out the kitchen. Once Nuria saw their mission was a success, she quickly ended the conversation and scurried out of the kitchen. The girls met up in the hallway, admiring their handy work. Nuria patted Halima on the back, showing off her million–dollar smile. “You see? Nothing but quick work. Miss Cassandra won’t know what hit her.” “What are you two doing?” Halima and Nuria froze at the sound of the voice. Slowly turning around, they saw Neron standing with his arms crossed. Quirked an eyebrow, he pointed to the obvious plate of surgery treats in Hallma’s hands. “What’s that?” “What’s what?” Both girls asked in unison. “That.” Shuffling the plate behind them, the children feigned innocence. “We don’t know what you’re talking about!” “Hmm.” Chuckling, the thirteen–year–old future Alpha leaned against the wall. “Tell you what. Give me a brownie or two and I’ll keep quiet about this crime. Mom and Dad will never know you two spoiled your dinner.” “No way! Finders Keepers!” Nuria exclaimed, pursing her lips at her big brother. “You want a brownie? …Give me a dollar and we have a deal.” Halima giggled as she watched Neron’s face contort in distaste. Sure, Nuria and she never hung out around their older siblings because of the age differences, but it was fun to have him around sometimes. “I’m not paying my little sister a dollar for brownies when I can ask Cassandra some for free!” “Suit yourself.” Nuria shrugged. In a flash, she unraveled her ponytail, took out the elastic band, aimed, and shot it directly at Neron’s nose. Once he was distracted, the nine–year–olds made a run for it. They dodged other pack members and their parents through their daring escape into the woods. In a gaggle of laughter, they ended up near their pond. The pond they called their secret fun place. Colorful birds bathe themselves in the clean water, only to promptly fly away from the ripples the girls made when their feet sunk into it. With the plate of treats between. them, they ate. “How long do you think until we get our wolves, Nuri?” Halima asked curiously as her fingers became sticky with chocolate. “I don’t know. Mom says it will be awhile before we can shift.” She explained. “I wonder what they’ll look like. Maybe mine will be black like Dad’s or grey like Mom’s.” … Read More “Untouchable Online Novel CHAPTER 92” »
“I have a voice, too, and for good or evil mine is the speech that cannot be silenced.” -Joseph Conrad Odessa Manicured fingers brush through the dark, silky strands of my soulmate’s hair. Beautiful as he’s formidable, I’m presented with a different picture of him. A picture of bliss and peace. His nose flares gently with every silent inhale of my scent. The bed we share in his room is warm, like a gentle ember underneath this blanket. With the air conditioning humming behind us, I can’t tell July from December. It’s a wonderful feeling. While admiring my mate, my mind reminisces, contorting the image of Darien into Neron. He and I used to share moments like this: we’d watch each other sleep until the sun beckons us to start our day. Memories of the love swimming in those sapphire blues engulfed my mind and senses into deep, power nostalgia. No different from Darien’s sapphires. Neron’s touches, his sweetness, his lips; I remember all. It ignited a fire within my core that made my legs quiver. Neron’s love was consuming, and it was a storm I refused to take refuge from. Doesn’t he know how much it hurts? To watch him give that same love to someone else? To watch him pine for the love of a woman who doesn’t care for him and their bond? 1, attractie I was the golden apple in Neron’s eye as he was in mine. Even as young teenagers, he’s the one I knew my heart wanted. funny; he’s the total package. I still remember the Valentine’s Day card he made for me when we were sixteen. Heart–shaped, doused in red glitter with fine calligraphy print on the inside. It symbolized the day we officially became boyfriend and girlfriend. It still rests in my drawer underneath my clothes. I loved him back then, and I still do now. Despite my mate bond with Darien, part of my heart aches for Neron. It beats for him in the rhythm of drums every time I inhale his woodsy scent. It aches for his touches once more. Darien’s touches are near the same caliber as my Alpha’s, except the fire blazes. Wild, passionate, and untamed. Every time we made love, it’s as if I saw heaven itself. I’m taken to pleasure beyond my comprehension with nothing to reign me in. It’s inhibited and stunning. Right now, I see no sign of the passionate man that thrusts into me day in and day out. His love is just as consuming, and it fills me with completion. Just how the Moon Goddess destined us to be together. But it’s not enough. Not enough for me. Darien is my soulmate. Nothing can change about that. Ariel howls only for him. However, soulmate or not, Neron is my first love. Humans say that you never forget your first love, and I agree. He’s the first person to wear my heart on his sleeve. Like a pirate with his treasure chest, I was Neron’s diamond. He’s the soldier, and my heart was his blade. My beloved Alpha made me feel powerful, wanted, and seen. Seen by all. A soft chuckle bubbled in my chest; I’m not so useless now, am I? 175 Chapter 2 – The Dark Influence Neron sacrificed destiny to keep me at his side. He defied all for me. That was all the proof I needed to see how intense his love for me is. My happiness mattered to him. Such a strong, authoritative man Neron is; he can have anything he wanted with the flick of the wrist. My Alpha gave me anything I wanted and treated me like a queen. His queen. Yet… He went from an intimidating Alpha to a lovesick puppy. For someone else. How can he forget everything like that? All we’ve been through together? I’ve been nothing but faithful, and he tossed me away. The chuckle shattered into a sea of anger, bubbling and toiling like scarlet lava. It threatened to overflow and incinerate everything in contact. But just as quickly as it appeared, it disappeared. I can’t find it in my heart to be mad at Neron. He’s just overrun by guilt! That’s why he’s been acting this way. Once Kiya fucking dies, he’ll love me again. And I’ll do anything to make him love me, yet I can’t abandon Dari Ariel loves him. She can’t let him go. I love him. I can’t let him go. And I still love Neron. My wolf and I have different wants and needs. We’re two sides of the same coin, yet complete opposites. I want my Alpha and she wants her Delta. Why have the best of both worlds? The Moon Goddess is a fool to give all werewolves a singular mate. One mate cannot fulfill all our needs. Well, at least mine. So why can’t we have two? Can’t she see my heart belongs to two men, and I’m forced to choose one over the other? I still remember the promise Neron and I made long ago. The memory is as fresh as the moment of its birth. We carve our destiny. Our destined mates are damned, and we’ll be together as we want to be. Had no werewolf thought to throw away the blessed gifts our Moon Goddess gave to pursue our paths. He’s forgotten his promise. Bewitched by midnight–colored curls, he forged a commitment and refused to abide. All because of that-! “Don’t make that face, dear. It’ll get stuck.” My head shot up to see a swirl of smoke hovering at the foot of the bed. With eyes unseen, I feel them peering into mine. Innate instincts reach out for Darien to protect me, but I know it’s not possible. This is my problem because I made a deal with the devil to regain what I’ve lost. “Don’t wake him.” I requested softly in hopes Darien doesn’t stir. He’s a heavy sleeper, but better safe than sorry. “He won’t if you come with me quietly. We have some things to discuss. Into the bathroom, now.” There’s a pull I couldn’t resist. Invisible threads controlled my limbs, forcing them to move on their own. Robotically, I sprang out of bed and strode into the bathroom, locking the door behind me. The smoke quickly materialized into a human form. Osiris emerged with his white hair flailing and dressed in a dark suit, complimenting his deep skin. Wow. Even during his dealings with darkness, he dresses sharply. “We’ll make this quick.” He grinned with his fangs displayed. Soft hisses echoed between us, reminding me that his disgusting pet snake is with him. The juniper–green reptile coiled around his right arm; scarlet eyes “N–No.” I shake my head, head bowed in submission. “New pack members are coming in upon the Alpha’s decision to accept refugees, training for the warriors has increased, and the Gamma Female is with child.” The devil or whatever–the–hell–he–is nodded. “And of the avatar?” Irritation clawed through me at the meager mention of the ‘A‘ word. I hated that bitch and my impatience beckons for her fall. “She and the Alpha… they look as if they’re becoming closer. She continues to reject his advances, but Neron won’t give up the pursuit for her heart.” Osiris regarded me with a knowing look, with his finger tapping his cheek in the rhythm of my heartbeat. His look is enough to send shivers down my spine, gripping it forcefully. “Your anger carries a scent, dear, and I must say…it’s sweet. Not my type of sweet, but sweet. I think it’s time to implement my plans.” “What do you plan on doing with Kiya once you have her?” I ask curiously. Not that I care, but why the hunt? Maybe he wants her powers? If he kills her, that’s fine with me. Deep in me, Ariel doesn’t stir. She hasn’t spoken to me since I made the deal with Osiris. “Don’t ask questions that don’t concern you, pet.” He hissed. Deadly and ready to strike, his snake hovers his head next to its owner, sharp fangs glistening under the bathroom lighting. Recoiling, my back hit the bathroom door because the raw memories of the snake biting me infested my mind. … Read More “Untouchable Online Novel CHAPTER 91” »
“He wished he could find a way back to believing, even though he knew better, that she was his to protect.” Cassandra Clare Neron “Move it, soldiers!” It’s been three weeks since the insanity. Three weeks since Zircon Moon territory was nearly burned to ash. Thankfully, Mother Nature is a healer and since then, has blessed our lands with lush green once more. The earth trembled as thunderous footsteps of warrior men and women encircled the land under the early morning sky. Golden and blessed light from the barely peeked over the horizon to dissipate the cerulean blue. I led the charge of the morning run, adding it to the warrior’s regime before their day. The cool morning breeze whipped against my bare skin, taking strands of my hair along for the ride. It felt good. It’s freeing. Like a dip in a cold pool right before the heat of summer. It’s July and so much has happened within these past weeks. Beefed up border security, new members trickling into our community, and pregnancies. Lorelai, Kwame’s mate, is carrying his pup and celebrations were in order. I still remember the tear–stained face of Amani and Omar Dubois at the announcement. They’re going to be grandparents! Praises to our beloved Moon Goddess echoed throughout the night from the Gamma family, including a few excited yells here and there. Whenever a ranked wolf or their mate announces their pregnancies, we throw them a celebration to bless them with a healthy pregnancy and pray to our Moon Goddess for their safety throughout it all. We dance deep into the night accompanied by food, drinks, and booming music to broadcast the future member of our family. Carrying pups isn’t easy, I imagine. Witnessing my little sister’s birth was enough for me. Good news aside, one thing weighed heavily on my mind as the soldiers and I turned a corner. The impending punitive reality that awaits in August. Kiya will leave and I’ll never see her again. It will separate my mate and me for good, and my strong heart pounds harder. Not at the exercise, but the future separation. I can’t bear it. I can’t bear the thought of my beloved leaving, not after all we’ve been through. It’s unjust to force her to stay at my side when she doesn’t want to, but goddamnit, I love her so much it hurts! With every passing day, the pain in my heart grows. The time constraint is a bastard thing, taunting me at how I cannot earn the heart and trust of my soulmate. I loathed it. I wanted nothing more than to burn it under the fiery inferno of hell. Fate is telling me to give up, but I refuse. I gave up on Kiya before. Five years ago. Now, I refuse to stop fighting. I’ll continue to fight until her last day on my land. I moved faster. I pump my legs harder. My stomps grew in volume and the world faded around me in a blur of color. It’s hard to tell if it’s my determination or Onyx that’s pushing me. He can’t bear to lose our beloved either. He’s been alone for too long and it’s my fault. If I only accepted Kiya from the beginning. If only I treated Kiya with love and respect. If I wasn’t blinded by Chapter 1 – Protect Her Peace grief and anger, Onyx and I wouldn’t be in this precarious situation where we’d lose our other half for good. I can’t give up. Not on her. Not on Kiya. She’s all that matters to me. I’d give anything to see her smile at me, just like on our date at the amusement park. After the run, I walked into the silent pack house. I expect no one to rise this early unless they’re training to defend our lands. Not even the Omegas. However, the sound of cups against countertops and the smell of coffee ignited my curiosity. Huh. Who’s up this early? As I walked closer to the kitchen, my favorite scent in the world wafted up to my nose. A deep, satisfying growl rumbled in my chest and sharp pleasure slices through my nerve endings. Honeyed strawberries and vanilla are an intoxicating mixture that I can’t get enough of. It bathes my sweaty body in comfort and warmth, lulling into a deep sense of security. If I could bottle it up as a perfume, I’d keep it by my side forever. I spend a couple of seconds longer sniffing the air like a madman before walking into the kitchenette to spot my mate stirring her coffee in a large mug labeled “Feeling Kinda Stabby‘. She’s wearing pajamas, Pajamas that cast a halo around her melanin. Kiya looks so good in pastels. Her shorts revealed her legs, scarred and beautiful. Her tank top also revealed her arms and back, striking pain in my mind at the scar on her shoulder blade barely curtained by her beautiful curls. Her tired sigh echoed in the kitchen’s quiet atmosphere. “What do you need, Neron?” Her sweet voice asked, her body turning to face me with her hands cradling her mug. I took a moment to soak up her appearance, and it didn’t bring my heart joy. Why? Kiya looks like she’s carrying the weight of the entire world and then some. Noticeable bags under her eyes exasperate her tiredness, her skin doesn’t have that usual shine, some of her curls are pointing in every direction. My mate’s on the verge of collapsing in exhaustion. She looks no different from women forced to work in sweatshops for long hours. I’m worried. Onyx is worried and urges me to go to her. “What’s wrong, Kiya?” I ask softly, taking steps into the kitchen. “Are you okay?” “I’m fine.” She says. Like hell she is. The heavy tone in her voice betrays her words. “It’s nothing.” “It sounds like something.” I reply. “Kiya, something’s bothering you. You look like you haven’t slept in days.” “Because I haven’t been.” I’m sure she didn’t mean for me to hear because I watched her tired expression turn into one of embarrassment. “Ugh. Forget what I’ve said.” “I can’t and won’t.” Now three feet from her, I rest my elbow on the kitchen’s island. “Kiya. Tell me what’s wrong. Maybe I can help.” “Not with this.” She shakes her head. Pain courses through me because Kiya won’t put her trust in me. She has every reason not to, and yet, I can’t stop the desire to help her. I want to shoulder that burden, so she 2/7 Chapter 1 – Protect Her Peace doesn’t have to carry it all. So much has happened to her. “I’m not letting this go, Kiya,” I said firmly, “You look like you need someone to talk to. You need to get whatever this is off your chest.” “Why should I trust you?” … Read More “Untouchable Online Novel CHAPTER 90” »
Unhinged – Prologue (Author’s Note: Unhinged, Book 2 of the Moonlight Avatar Series contains details of the following subjects: abuse, trauma, violence, sexual assault, recovery from trauma, and intense emotional relapse. This book and series is not suitable for all readers. While the subject of the supernatural, werewolves, and magic is the focal point of the story, the series will follow the effects of trauma and abandonment associated with the main female lead. If you are easily triggered by any of the mentioned subjects, do not read ahead for your mental health. This is your only warning. Read at your own risk.) Kiya Murky clouds hide the cerulean sky as heavy rain douses the russet earth. Mother Nature, unable to handle the endless demand of water, surrendered from the onslaught with puddles of mud drifting through the blades of grass. Humans would call this a depressing day; the sun hides, children’s laughter is nonexistent, and many shelters themselves from the unforgiving precipitation. To combat an emotionless day, they hole themselves up inside the cozy abodes that bathe them in soothing heat. A heavy sigh holding the weight of the world escapes my plump lips in a puff. The colorless whips melt into the darkened, eerie atmosphere around my form. Separated from the warmth of the blanket, I force my upper body to make comfort with the chill of the rainy day, demanding the death of the summer heat. ‘Why am I awake?” I ask myself. Typically, I sleep through days like these. The pitter–patter of rain serves as calming music that lulled my fervid mind into a deep slumber. It pulls me from my maddening reality and tucks me into a world of serenity and safety. No one can harm me or bother me. But that’s not the case. Today, my mind overrides the calming presence of the battering rain against my window. Kicking the covers o off my feet, I walk to my private bathroom. My ears falled to pick up movement from the pack house. I heard not even the clanking of pots and pans from the Omegas in the kitchen. It’s as if I’m alone in this four–story house. Uncertainly rolls within me like the vicious waves of a tsunami. Amongst its violence, fear plants its cataclysmic seeds in the soll of my mind. I shouldn’t be afraid. There’s no reason to be. But I am. Flicking up the light switch, I walk towards the sink. Fluorescent lighting made the clean, colorless tiles shimmer until my shadow blocked their blessings. In the bathroom mirror, my reflection stares back at me, expressionless. Nothing is out of place. Melanin skin is still the same, my hair is slightly messy fro pillow, and the rest of my features hold no flaws. The sound of running water resounded through the lavatory ambiance, surrounding the sink plug in a small, rapidly draining pool. I didn’t open the faucet. How could have it done that on its own? Without thinking much of it, I shut it off. Before I can look at my reflection again, the pristine white sink welcomed droplets of red. One. Two. Three. The crimson precipitation increased in speed, drops doubling. Startled, my head shot up at the mirror to see the 1/5 Unhinged–Prologue side of my mouth bleeding. Not of external injury, but as if I bit the inside of my cheek hard. Droplets quickly turned to rivers as both sides of my mouth began spilling blood into the sink. It flowed faster than the faucet as the vile taste of metallic cloaked my senses in a haze of terror. But it wasn’t the only thing that’s red. My eyes, once beautiful coffee brown, flashed to a sharp vermillion red. And then blackness began tracking the nerves of my neck and chest, coming from the crook of my neck, where my neck and shoulder met. Curling and crawling as if it’s alive! Screaming, I fell backward into the door, unable to comprehend the horrific appearance my reflection is taking. Only to know that it’s not just my reflection. It’s me! Lifting my hands, I watch as black swam through my arms to my fingertips, mapping every internal vein and artery anatomically possible. If that wasn’t bad enough, pain skyrocketed through my body as the transformation took place. My body convulsed. Writhed. Quaked under the blinding power of unknown agony. It’s more than I could handle! I have to stop this! “All you have to do is submit.” A deep, malignant voice echoed around me in surround–sound. Black smoke billowed in, blocking the light from the fluorescent lightbulbs, drenching the room in metal–colored horror. It encircles me, caresses me, and chokes me. The smoke took the forms of hands, rubbing my bare arms before moving to my neck, fingers caressing the crook. “The more you resist the darkness, the more pain you’ll be in. And you don’t want to be in any more pain, do you?” “Leave me alone!” I screamed, waving my hands madly to dissipate the smoke. It hurts. Everything hurts so much! Blood continued to flow, staining my blue nightgown in gargantuan splotches. Weakly, I crawled toward the sink, holding onto the rim for support. Lifting myself, albeit slowly, I finally soaked in the reflecting, pulsating evil that stole my appearance. It took a form of its own, cackling like a mad–woman, Smokey hands rested on my reflection’s shoulders, another pair of red eyes peering into the depths of my soul. The amount of fear I feel at this moment is staggering. It threatens to collapse, crushing me under its weight. “Surrender. Submit. Being in the darkness is so much more fun than being in the light. Why resist? We both know you want to give up.” “No! No! No!” I chanted, gripping my curls so tight i ripped some from the scalp. I have to stop this. I must! I can’t be like this! “Use it.” Artemis boomed within my mind. Her faraway voice seems so close, bombarding my sensitive ears with a simple command. A sparkle of light in my peripherals drew my attention to the bloodied sink. Within held a knife. A knife made of silver. In desperation, I grasped the wooden hilt of the weapon, lifting. “Use it, Kiya. We have to die. This is our fate if you don’t.” you continue you know “Oh, dear Delta Kiya.” The billow of smoke sang, caressing my dark reflection lovingly. “How long will to play the game of righteousness and morality? How long will you play the pure–hearted imposter when of the darkness brewing inside you?” My hand shook. The knife shook. “Do it.” Artemis orders. “End your life!” “Surrender.” The smoke commands. “Give into the blackness of your heart.” Unhinged–Prologur Opposite demands began filling my ears, crushing me. My brain cannot process so much at once, even as I shut my eyes. Sensory overload torments me and sends my brain into a pool of hellfire. Burning. Screaming. Over and over 1 hear the same demands; one from my wolf and the other from the evil entity. I felt two icy hands wrap around my shaky hand. My eyes flew open to see my evil reflection, smiling at me with bloodied teeth, angling the blade to my neck. Its arms stretched from the prison of the mirror, tangible and real. Just looking at this monstrous version of myself zapped my strength. I felt like a doll and it’s my marionette. In its eyes, nothing but malevolence dances behind the lens like the devil is enjoying himself. It is the devil. How could this be me? I’m not darkness! I’m not evil! I’M NOT! “The light is painful.” It whispers sickly sweet. “We suffered. But in the darkness, no longer. We are safe. We are happy.” “We are free.” I couldn’t stop it. It’s too strong. My reflection, myself, rammed the silver blade through the flesh of my neck. I choked and coughed as my crimson essence gushed rapidly from the self–inflicted wound. Red dribbled and gushed onto the granite tiles in waterfalls, taking my life with its flow. My brown eyes didn’t leave my reflection, its red eyes tinting in sadness. “We don’t want to suffer anymore, do we?.” … Read More “Untouchable Online Novel CHAPTER 89” »
Halloween Special – Memories of a Friend (Part 2) “When you have a friend by your side that helps you to find the beauty of all when you’ll open your heart and believe in the gift of a friend.” – “Gift of a Friend by Demi Lovato Kiya Alesia’s thumb went to wipe the traitorous tears from my cheeks, catching them before they continued to rain on her mate’s thigh. “I hate remembering. It hurts all the time.” “Remembering can be a good thing, Little Bit.” Anthony’s fingers caressed my curls mindful of the silvered circlet resting underneath the layers. “It means you haven’t forgotten. And it shows just how much Nuria meant to you. I can tell that you loved her, and she loved you.” Through my tears, another small smile surface on my face as another memory of Nuria’s presence plays; her small form in a halo. “She was always decked out in gold and orange. I remember her wings were a translucent yellow that always went crooked in the breeze because she ran too much. She was a trailblazer on Halloween. night, hitting people with her fairy wand whenever they were disrespectful to anyone. Somehow, that always kept the peace.” “Well, no one can go against the word of the Alpha’s daughter.” Alesia chuckled, rubbing her stomach lovingly. “Ximena would be the same. I can feel it.” “I can too.” My hand went to her pregnant belly, my smile widening when I felt a little kick. I’m going to love that baby more than life itself. “Nuria was the pack angel, and now she’s a real one. Lost too soon.” “Is that why you’re dressed as a Moon Fairy?” Anthony suddenly asked. “To honor her?” My breath trapped itself at the base of my throat. Am I that easy to figure out? “Yes. I did. To deviate from our little tradition didn’t feel right. But…I didn’t know how hard it would be without my partner–in–crime.” “Little Bit…” “I should’ve hidden in my room as usual.” My hands balled into fists, shaking in the essence of failure. My failure. “Goddess, I’m so pathetic.” “Hey!” Both our heads shot to Alesia, who’s glaring at me with the force of a million suns. The Alpha’s glare has nothing on his Luna. “Don’t talk that way about my favorite person in the world.” “I thought I was your favorite person.” Anthony mocked hurt, his bottom lip quivering for emphasis. Jeez, what a goofball. “You are, but you’re in a separate category.” Alesia shot him a wink before looking at me. “Anyway, back to you, young lady.” “Great.” “You’re not pathetic. Far from it. You’ve grown so much since you’ve been here, and I couldn’t be any prouder. Your parents would be so proud of you. This night stirs up a lot of emotion in you, and that’s okay. The fact that you’ve come out of your room and tried to enjoy this night is a testament to your bravery. You wanted to have fun and be happy not just for yourself, but for your late friend.” Special–Memones of a Friend (Part 2) “Few people dare to do that, you know?” Anthony added. “You came out, wear the costume that meant so much to you, and walked into our party. If Nuria was alive, she’d be proud of you.” “You think so?” “Yep.” My brother nodded in pride. “You never forgot about her. Maybe she’s celebrating Halloween in the heavens in her special way.” Oddly, that thought brought me comfort. My best friend is an angel alongside Angelika celebrating in heaven. I expected tears, but all I got are bubbles of happiness. “Knowing her, she’s probably zipping through the clouds bonking people on the head.” The couple chuckled along with me. “How are you feeling now?” Alesia asked, playing with my hair, mindful of the silver circlet underneath the layers. “If you want to go back to your room, I understand.” “No, no…it’s fine.” I insisted. “I…I want to go back to the party.” “Are you sure?” Anthony questioned. “Yeah. Halloween happens once a year, right? I want to enjoy tonight, for myself and Nuria.” My brother and sister–in–law shared a look that expressed joy and warmth. In the middle between the trapped heat, I fell into a deep sense of comfort. I felt loved and cared for. Memories of Nuria still hurt. I still carry the guilt of her death deep in my heart. No matter how many times people tell me, I still feel that I played a part in her passing. ill ever po I don’t think away. But I want to have fun tonight. Ease the burden of the agony her memory brings. Tonight, I want to party for her as if she were still alive with me. Anthony and Alesia helped me up on my feet, although it turned to us helping Alesia up with her belly. I can’t imagine how hard it must be to carry children. I don’t think I’ll ever have children, although I love them a lot. “Alright then.” My brother smiled. “Let’s go back.” “What about the bottles?” I asked, pointing to the litter of black at our feet. “Oh, don’t worry. You’ll be carrying your mess back home.” I should’ve expected that. The two of them went ahead while I picked up the empty bottles off the ground. Perched on a branch is Diana, my beloved owl. Her golden eyes look upon me with affection. I swear, there has to be a person underneath that ruffle of feathers. “Hi. Enjoying this Halloween night?” I asked her, expecting an answer. Diana merely stared at me before fluttering over, pressing her beak to my cheek, and fluttering back to her branch. Did…Did she just kiss me? I swear, there’s more to that nocturnal cotton–ball than meets the eye. Halloween Special emories of a Friend (Part 2) As I made my way back to the pack house, I tossed the empty bottles in the available trash bin. I never got that alcoholic buzz, but that didn’t matter to me. I wanted to remember this night. Walking the path to the back of the house, the party is in full swing. All members: young and old, light and dark, tall and short, are all dressed in various costumes. Frankenstein, deities, movie characters, cartoon characters, and more filled in the color on this night. Music boomed to a heavy beat that thumped with the rhythm of my heart, drawing me into its magic. Pack members moved their bodies to the music as the children played with one another in between the spaces. It’s a night for everyone to be themselves and truly fall in love with what this annual night offered. Despite the music drawing me in, the food table had a stronger pull. … Read More “Untouchable Online Novel CHAPTER 88” »
“Oh, I hope you can hear me, ‘cause I remember it clearly. The day you slipped away. Was the day I found it won’t be the same.“–“Slipped Away by Avril Lavigne Kiya “Come on, Hali! We’re going to be late for the party!” “I’m coming, I’m coming! It’s not my fault this wing is crooked!” One swig and my throat burn from the crimson liquid. Housed in a black bottle, the pungent taste of alcohol overrode the sweetness of the wine, Port wine. The only alcohol I drank as a loser slumped against one of the many redwood trees in the forest. “Your wing looks fine! As long as you don’t move it too much, it’ll be okay!” “Easy for you to say. Your wings look perfect.” Goddess, why am I doing this? Werewolves have a high alcohol tolerance that makes them unable to get drunk easily. We burn it off faster than humans. It takes a lot to get our kind intoxicated; probably twice or three times as much as a normal human. Either way, this supposed highlight of our abilities is proven to be a curse to me. “Me, as the Sun Fairy, always has to look perfect! It’s in our nature.” “I’m the Moon Fairy and I can’t look like a mess! What would the other kids think?” Ah, the Moon Fairy. The being I’ve dressed as for this accursed holiday called Halloween. Dressed in a white and blue sleeveless dress with shredded hems, the shimmering sequins danced to their silent tune under the moonlight. A full moon on Halloween is rare, so I’ve heard. Legend says that on Halloween, it weakens the veils to the worlds beyond mortals. It gives a chance for other–world creatures to pass through and mingle in the world of mortality for a night before retreating. Amusing. “The other kids would think we look amazing! Like twins!! “At least they can tell us apart.” Another swig. Two. Three. I hate remembering what used to be. The better days of my life before it turned into a dumpster fire my old pack willfully created. Days of happiness, freedom, warmth, and friendship. Days where I felt invincible; none of the world’s ills could touch me. Oh, how was I wrong. So fucking wrong. Waiting for the alcoholic buzz is a killer. The desperation for the effects of alcohol shows as I continuously bring the bottle rim to my lips every thirty seconds. This sinful liquid is supposed to be a depressant, so why isn’t it depressing? Depress these emotions and these fucking memories. “Of course! Do you remember your line?” “Yeah, because we’ve rehearsed it a thousand times!” 1/4 Halloween Special – Memones of a Stupid brain! Stop it! “I, Nuria the Golden Sun Fairy, is here to shine the light of hope!” “I, Halima the Silver Moon Fairy, is here to shine the light of magic!” Stop it! “And we’re here to stop the evil in the world together!” Fuck! Hot tears swam down my cheeks as the night breeze ignored the pain stuffed inside them. My head pressed against the thick tree bark as my chest heaved in sobs, I thought I was strong enough to get through this night; to celebrate it with my friends. After the two Halloweens I skipped, I thought this one would be different. I thought wrong. I wasn’t ready, I was never ready. Now look at me: pathetically getting drunk alone in the woods in a frantic attempt to stop the memories of a dead child from flooding into my mind. Memories of Nuria that I can’t ever forget, no matter how hard I try. Her body is buried miles away from me, but it’s as if her presence is that much closer to me tonight. And I hate it. I hate it so much. Furious, I grabbed an empty bottle and hurdled it towards an innocent tree, glass shattering into millions of stray pieces some feet away. Breaking things is supposedly therapeutic, but I only fell worse. It’s always something. Something that triggers a faraway memory and ruining my night. Goddess, I’m more fucked up than I originally thought. No wonder I need therapy. I took more swigs of my wine before the bottle had nothing left to give. Luckily, I had another one. My fourth one, to be exact. Sniffling, I ripped the cap open and continued chugging. Why wine? There are stronger options in the kitchen; options that could get a werewolf sufficiently drunk. It’s not tequila or whisky or vodka for werewolves. It’s a special beer sought by my kind. It’s also the kind that triggers a barrage of traumatic memories from a single whill. The smell mixed with hot breath throws me right back into that putrid, dingy hellhole my former Alpha loved to beat me in. Never will I touch a single bottle of that. It hits too close to home. So, I’m left with the strongest wine available. It’s sweet and I like it. I like sweet things. Before I could enjoy more of its sweetness, however, the bottle was snatched out of my hand. Pissed, I look up to be met with the angry hazel eyes of my brother dressed in a pirate captain’s costume. Adorned in brown, blue, and red with a sword attached to his hip, Anthony glared at me with the force of a thousand suns. I know he’s angry at what I’m doing, but I didn’t care. I need that bottle to block out my traitorous brain! Flanking on his right is Alesia in her first mate’s costume with a noticeably pregnant belly. My heart softened at the growth of my niece inside the womb. I can’t wait to meet the bundle of joy in November. But my love for the baby quickly dissipated as the want of alcohol bombarded me like bullets. alloween Special – Memories of a Friend (Part 1) “Give it back!” I shouted, my hands reaching up. “That’s mine!” “Really? I recall that this belongs to the pack kitchen cabinets. Mom was wondering why several bottles of wine were missing. Lead Omega Cleo was worried about a potential thief.” Anthony scoffed. “And if I recall correctly, fairies don’t steal.” Like a child, I whined as I stood and tried to reach the bottle of drunken haze, but my brother held it high. above his head, using his insane height as his advantage. Fucking tall people. “No, Kiya. You had enough.” “Says you!” I barked back. “I need it! You wouldn’t understand!” “Kiya, even I agree that you had enough,” Alesia said next to my ear, bringing my hands down to my sides. “There’s no such thing as a need for alcohol. What do you mean ‘we won’t understand“?” “Forget it.” I slumped back on top of the uncomfortable roots of my tree and drew my knees to my chest. ” back to the party. I want to be alone.” “Finding my little sister alone in the woods with empty wine bottles is no basis for me to leave her alone.” Anthony retorted with an arched eyebrow. “And you sound like you’ve been crying. You look like it too.” … Read More “Untouchable Online Novel CHAPTER 87” »
Chapter 86 – The End? POV Third Person POV Neron knew this was coming. There was no avoiding this. After the insanity that happened the past several days, he desperately needed a moment of peace. Sitting on the front stairs under the moonlight did that. Who could handle craziness, one after another, without taking a moment’s rest? Onyx rumbled in delight when his mate took a seat next to his human, although it felt too far for his liking, there was a sizable distance between the two werewolves. Kiya preferred it while the Alpha craved for her closeness. “We do,” Neron replied, observing the grass. “How are you feeling, all things considered?” “I’m alright,” Kiya answered. “Getting kidnapped was unexpected, but at least I’m back now, safe, and sound.“ A comfortable silence fell between them as they ruminated on their thoughts. What was there to say? Both knew there was more they needed to talk about, but Cerberus and Osiris put those needed talks on the backburner. Sighing, Kiya was the one who spoke, again. “Neron, a lot has happened between us.” She started. “From the poisoning to your dad to the kiss and now this. So much is going on and it isn’t doing us any favors.” “I know.” Neron sighed. “Trouble likes to find its way to us, even when we don’t attract it.” He spared her a glance. “But it doesn’t change how I feel about you. I was truly, honestly terrified when you were kidnapped. I thought I failed. I thought I’d never see you again. And when I saw that asylum go down in flames and you weren’t around, I only thought of the worst.” “Our minds like to do that.” Kiya shined a pained smile. “It fucks with us when we least expect it.” She expelled a sigh. “I wanted to thank you for what you did.” “Thank me?” “Anthony told me how you led the charge of the rescue and how you let nothing stop you from getting to me, even at the risk of getting burned. While I don’t like you risking your life for me, thank you for saving Phoebe and me.” “Of course.” He smiled before it fell to a sad frown. “What does this mean between us? Do you regret the kiss we shared at the park?” Kiya sighed once more, fumbling with her fingers. There was no beating around the bush. She had to tell him. She had to tell the truth to make it easier for them both. “I admit, Neron, it felt good. I’ve never been kissed like that before and it was amazing, but even things that feel good are wrong. It shouldn’t have happened.” Neron’s heart shattered when hit with the cold, hard truth. His mate liked the kiss but regretted it. It was a forbidden thing that couldn’t happen again. It was the first and last time they’ll ever kiss like that. Memories of the sensation and how her lips moved in sync with his played in his mind like a broken record. His body grew ablaze like that night, his lips throbbing in recollections of her sweetness. It hurt. “I’m sorry, Kiya.” He began, working hard to steady his shaky voice. “I shouldn’t have kissed you. I made you uncomfortable, and I kissed you without your consent. I just…” He bit his lip. “I need you. I need you like air and I want to cherish your heart and-!” Chapter 86–The End? “Neron.” Kiya interrupted him. “You never had my heart in the first place. We’re mates, but I never loved you. We aren’t lovers. I’m sorry if you were expecting something different, but it was the truth.” She toyed with her fingers, trying to come up with a way to say her next words without sounding cold and callous. “Neron…I can’t forget what happened. No matter what I do or how much I’m around you, I can’t forget the past. I can’t open up my heart in the way you want and I’m not ready to have any sort of mate bond nor romantic relationships. Every word was a silver bullet piercing through his flesh. It burned and sizzled, leaving the Alpha in a state of pure agony. He knew this was Kiya speaking her truth, and he couldn’t go against that. She was right. The history between them was dark and grody. He hurt her. A few simple acts of kindness and sacrifice were not enough to pave over the past. Not for her. Not for him. “Do you still hate me?” Neron turned his body to face her, tremors rocking his limbs as he awaited her answer. “I wish I could erase what I did to you, but I know I can’t, it was a stain on my character and me as a man. I don’t expect you to love me, Kiya. I don’t deserve an ounce of your love.” “You don’t.” She confirmed with a blunt, emotionless tone. “What happened in the past affected my future. But I don’t hate you. I tolerate you. There was too much that happened between us. While I feel the bond and work beside you, I don’t have feelings for you.” I don’t deserve them. Neron thought to himself as the heaviness of Kiya’s words pressed against his chest. It crushed him. It crushed Onyx to hear a growl of confirmation from Artemis, who too was distancing herself from him. The black wolf wanted to tear Neron apart for losing his mate, for it was a long time coming, but he didn’t have the energy to. He had to deal with the fact that he would never truly have his destined soulmate. Neron only had himself to blame. It took a lot of strength to hold back his tears. As for Kiya, she merely looked up at the moon, even spotting Diana watching them from a branch. Sniffling, Neron nodded firmly. “That’s okay.” His smile exposed the hidden depths of his pain. “I still want and need to become a better man. A better Alpha. I’ll right the wrongs I’ve done to others. What happened today made me realize how much I truly do care about you, but it also made me realize just how far apart we were from one another. And I did that. I hurt you, Kiya. Hurt you so badly. I had no right to treat you the way I did. I regret everything. I do. But I don’t regret caring about you.” “Neron…it’s best for the both of us for you to cut any emotional connection you have for me,” Kiya stated, her voice cold as a glacier, as if a deity was speaking. “I’m leaving at the end of summer and never returning.” Of course, she was. She won’t be here forever. In a blink of an eye, Kiya would return to California and never set foot in Nevada again. Was it bad that Neron wanted her to stay? “We can’t trap her here,” Onyx mumbled. “Zircon Moon is painful to her. We’re painful to her. We can’t force her to stay because we’re afraid of being alone. That’s selfish of us.” He was right, it was unethical. But how do you cut off feelings for someone? How could an Alpha with his possessive qualities turn off the love and care he had for his mate? In all situations, Neron loses. He had to accept it. He couldn’t reach the one thing he wanted more than anything: Kiya’s heart. “I can’t stop caring about you, Kiya,” Neron admitted. “I’ll enjoy having you near while it lasts. When it comes time for you to leave… I’ll learn to let you go, even though my heart is begging for you to not leave me.” “Alphas don’t beg, Neron.” The woman rose to her feet. “Remember that. Goodnight.” Before she took a step. Chapter 26 The End? into the house, she paused, expelling a deep sigh. “I’m sorry.” Kiya disappeared inside the vast house, leaving the Alpha alone in the night’s silence. The surrounding temperature dropped several degrees as the dark trees blurred into a muddle of navy blues and blacks like an ocean under the evening sky. Hot tears slid down his face as choked sobs echoed from his mouth. “I can’t earn back her trust, right Onyx?” He asked his wolf, pained emotions laced in his mind–link. Onyx didn’t answer. At least Neron was grateful for one thing, he was alone. Everyone was going to sleep. No one would hear his cries. Osiris … Read More “Untouchable Online Novel CHAPTER 86” »
Chapter 85 The Reunion – “Family and friends are hidden treasures, seek them out and enjoy their riches.” – Wanda Hope Carter Kiya “Why didn’t you tell me you’re a mermaid?” “Why didn’t you tell me you’re a werewolf?” “…Touché.” The smell of burning wood and concrete encompassed the surrounding air. Violetta, Phoebe, and I made it out of the river and were walking toward where the packs are. We trembled under the chilly breeze, which did not make for a fun time since the three of us were barefoot and drenched from head to toe. Phoebe’s leg was injured with the bullet wound, so we supported her during our slow walk. Guided by my powerful sense of smell, the scents of the wolves got stronger the closer we approached. I could smell the other avatars, and it brought me relief to know they were safe. We were all safe. “Is your pack nice? Violetta asked, pushing some of her wet hair behind her ear. “They won’t eat me, right?” “Most don’t like seafood, so you’re good.” I chuckled, even when she reached over and flicked my forehead. That laugh was needed. I saw a smirk etched on her face, even Phoebe’s. “There are two different packs here. One is mine and Phoebe’s, who are nice. The other one… well, are allies. Can’t say much about them.” “Ah.” Shuffling got louder and noises cleared to the conversation. As we advanced, I could make out the faces of many wolves of Garnet and Zircon Moon alike, including my friends. Our gang of friends is the first to notice us. Phoebe’s shout of pure relief tugged at my heart. “Guys!” Sapphire screamed, ripping herself from Isaiah, running towards us. Everyone’s heads snapped in her direction, including the avatars who all had blankets or jackets around them. I noticed a few of them were snuggled with the warrior men and women. They found their mates! ‘Take care of Phoebe and Violetta first, please,” I say, handing the wet witch off to them. Phoebe wrapped her arms around Galen, who caught her before she fell. “I missed you guys…” She muttered, resting her head on our friend’s chest. Galen, looking like he won the lottery, squeezed back. “We missed you too! Get kidnapped again and I’m beating your asses.” He growled with a grin as Mikhail came over with a thick towel. “Says the one who spent all night praying and crying for their safety.” He waggled his eyebrows, making Galen blush. I urged Violetta to head towards Jackie and the others to get taken care of. That just left me. A sweet heavy scent of peaches and mangos smacked me in the face. “Ml rayo de luna!” My mom shouted, hugging my wet body with all the strength she could muster. “Oh, my baby, are you okay? Are you hurt anywhere?” 14 Chapter 85–The Reunion “Mom, I’m okay,” I admitted through her chest. I don’t know if she could hear it considering my face is pressed against her bosom. Patting her arm for release, she pulled away, revealing her tear–stained face. “I’m sorry for worrying you.” “Oh, I’m just glad you’re okay.” She muttered, planting kisses on my cheeks. Dad came over and hugged me too, whispering how much he missed me and how happy he was to see me. Even Anthony came over and gave me a bone–crushing hug. It must have felt strange to the wolves of our pack to see their big, tough Alpha crying and swinging his little sister around. I, for one, didn’t mind it. It meant he loved me and that’s all that mattered. I spotted Steven and Ashley behind my family, regarding me with a sad look. They took several steps away and focused on everyone else. I didn’t care. Why should I? Once I was put down, my family gave me a warm towel. The dark wet splotches on their clothes served as at reminder. Raina came over and hugged me and, strangely, I hugged her back. Turning my head, Neron. approached. His face wore multiple expressions of happiness, sadness, and worry. When he got close enough, he leaned in to hug me but recoiled when I landed a solid punch to his chest. “Ow!” He rubbed the sore spot. “What the hell was that for?” “For almost dying for me, you fucking idiot!” I shouted at him. Before he could react, I sprang forward and hugged him. All this time I was convinced he died. Images of Neron lying on the grass in a pool of blood haunted me, but I was so glad to be confirmed wrong. He looked as if the injury never happened. “Never do that again, Neron. I mean it.” “I’d do it a thousand times over if it meant you’re safe.” He cooed, squeezing me in our hug. Tingles and preordained sparks erupted within my body from his touch. “I’m glad you’re okay. Really.” I’m glad too. I was glad everyone was okay. The hellscape burns behind us. That place would never hurt and harm innocent avatars again. It died in the flames of its sins, charred black in punishment. I could only hope Osiris and Cerberus died in that fire. It took hours to return to Zircon Moon territory. The afternoon sun began its beginning stages of departure. Activity boomed across the land as both Alphas worked on arrangements for the avatars to return to their homes, including by car and by flight. Some avatars ran away from home, while some had significant others and families they must return to. They made arrangements to accommodate their needs. Adonis tackled me into a hug the moment he saw me. The spunky bundle of joy rambled on about how he wanted to play with me and how he missed me. I smiled and hugged him back, telling him we’ll have a playdate after things settle down. The answer was more than enough for him because he kissed me on the cheek before scampering back to his parents. “Hey, guys.” Phoebe and I looked up to see Violetta walking towards us, dressed in her usual gothic–like gear. Some she–wolves lent her clothes since we only came in dresses. “Thank you. Really. While this was one hell of an adventure I don’t wish to repeat, it is great meeting you two.” “Likewise, Violetta.” Phoebe beamed, her fingers dancing across the gauze wrapped around her calf. “Have your contacted your partner?” Chapter 85–The Reunion “Well, partners.” She grinned. “And yes, I did. They’re eagerly awaiting my return, so I best get on moving.” Reaching in her pocket, she pulls out two slips of paper and hands them to us. “My number, in case you guys want to hang out. I like to get to know my fellow avatars better.” I felt almost giddy with happiness. “Does this mean we’re friends?” Violetta regarded us with a look before breaking out into a smile. “Yeah. We escaped hell together, so that means we have something to bond on. Trauma bonding for the win.” We three shared a merry laugh before Violetta hopped into a vehicle that would take her back to her place. She’ll be resuming her music career after this. I knew with the support from her partners, my new friend would be alright. … Read More “Untouchable Online Novel CHAPTER 85” »
Chapter 84 – The Survivors “It will cost you a colossal defeat, if you wanna keep playin‘ god with me!” – “Deviations” Detroit: Become Human Rap by IT Music Osiris A war raged on. Wolves versus hybrids. Mutts versus crossbreeds. It was interesting. Just to see, hear, and smell how much a bunch of dogs would risk their lives for two females. Did I know they were here for Kiya and the witch? Of course. Dogs such as them wouldn’t care if they were ordinary avatars. That’s how I knew my Little Moon was special. To have an army rally behind her for her safety. Was she aware of her influence? Her power? She was greater than any wolf. If she wanted to, she could bend these mutts to her will. Bend anyone to her will. I know she wanted too. Deep down, buried underneath all that good and morality, she wanted power over those who hurt her. I could taste it in her blood and see it through her memories like a movie reel of the worst moments of her life and how she triumphed over them. It was a shame she forced those dark feelings down, pretending they didn’t exist. But, as I know, darkness had an interesting way of impeding in one’s life. Crashes and screams continue to echo below and around me. If those hybrids and traitors cannot defend themselves against a couple of horse–sized pooches, then they aren’t worth my time. They were never worthy of being part of my organization, anyway. Speaking of traitors… I knew Nadia was behind all of this. Weak humans don’t last long being surrounded by darkness. Now that I think about it, I haven’t heard from Lucien in a while. He doesn’t answer my mental links, either. Could it be that I have two traitors in my midst? My fingers run through Pepi’s scales, him hissing in delight. One might wonder why I was so calm about this. About my facility being raided. Well, tools were disposable. It wasn’t like I care about what happens to these fools. Calmly, I left the fallen facility in a billow of darkness. The sunlight was bothersome, but not to the point I must hide like those stereotypical vampires the humans love. Cerberus would take care of the traitors. But my Little Moon? I’ll come for her again. After all, I marked her as mine. Kiya “You’re a werewolf?” Chapter – The Survivors “Yep.” “Since birth? “Yes.” Violetta grinned with a spring in her step, squealing like a child high on sugar. “That is so cool! I knew werewolves were a thing, but to have one next to me? Holy crap! I have so many questions!” “And I’m sure I can answer them, but could we save this interrogation for later?” “Right. Sorry!” It was not that I was annoyed at Violetta’s line of questioning, but it wasn’t the right time for it. Everywhere we turned laid a hidden danger, blocking our way from meeting the wolves at the bottom floor. Phoebe and I, desperately, wanted to reach our pack, but with the added risk of encountering hybrids or their allies with guns, it was impossible. We couldn’t afford to get captured again, and I sure as hell didn’t want bullets in me. I had enough scars as it was. So, the three of us advanced towards the top floor for our escape. I handed Femi off to a couple of avatar escapees a while ago We should expect this place to turn into and Nadia and Cadmael went to do their thi a fiery dome soon, which was why we needed to get the hell out of here. The scents of Anthony and Neron were strong. They were fighting hard. I could also smell Jackie and others. Even Mom and Dad! So many people were here for us, and it warmed my heart with happiness. Confidence rippled through me as the three of us ran up the stairs, hopped over crates, and fallen bodies to our freedom. We will meet the others, but not in the way we expect. It was too late and dangerous for us to turn back, especially when this place would blow up. We abruptly heard the rapid clatter of metal, then Phoebe fell to the ground in a scream. Violetta and I turned around to see that some hybrids caught up, pointing their guns at us. “Don’t move, bitches!” “Guys, go!” Phoebe yelled, clutching her leg. “Don’t worry about me!” We had a choice. Leave Phoebe behind and save ourselves or risk our lives so that the three of us to escape. together. Both had their pros and cons, and every choice had a consequence. I chose the latter. I refused to leave my friend behind. A pack sticks together and fights for each other, and Phoebe’s freedom was just as valuable as mine and Violetta’s. Thunder rumbled and lightning struck the ground where the hybrids were, forcing them to jump back from the impact. Behind me, I see Violetta with her hand outstretched, conjuring up an electrical storm out of mid- air. Phoebe, despite her injury, used her magic to summon water for her, who manipulated it in a way I couldn’t describe. Water bent to her would like a dancer. Water became her weapon, and it mercilessly tore through the hybrid males who dare to threaten our lives. Fixed with electricity, it made for a deadly combination that snuffed their lives out in a heartbeat. “Fucking pricks.” She muttered, settling her hands down. “If they were in the seas, I’d do much worse. Thank goodness Amphitrite is a goddess who doesn’t screw around,” “Thanks.” I smile, slinging Phoebe’s arm over my shoulder to help her up. “Although, I have a feeling we’d see more if we don’t hurry.” “Ditto.” The dark–haired woman came over and slung Phoebe’s other arm over her shoulder. It somehow. worked because she was taller than both of us. “The room shouldn’t be far away now. Honestly, I thought your wolf pack would be here by now.” “They might have gotten caught up.” I wondered. As the three of us walked slower than normal, I tried my best to mind–link Anthony. “Big bro?” “Little Bit! You have no idea how good it feels to hear from you! Where are you and Phoche?” “We’re heading to the top floor to escape out the window, the only place where an exit isn’t bordered up. There are so many hybrids behind us. We can’t take them all, at least not in the state we’re in.” “Can you shift?” “I can’t. They injected me with wolfsbane, and Artemis is weak. So much for being an avatar, huh?” … Read More “Untouchable Online Novel CHAPTER 84” »