Chapter 112 – Bailey
As I rushed from the school doors, needing to get away, I felt my chest tightening, I was feeling so s**d right now. I was his f**g secret… was he any better than Miles? The pain radiating through me at that thought was beyond anything I had ever experienced. And Akira whimpered within my mind. She did not like me thinking like that. She did not think Zion thought of her in that way, so she would not like to think that Asher would think of me in such a way, but sometimes the wolf and the human counterpart were two different entities. Different thoughts. Different opinions…
The way he reacted numerous times. The way he only met with me when no others were around… nobody knew about us… he had wanted us to remain a secret. That is the only way this thing between us could be considered. It had to be. I know it was not the same situation as it was with Miles, but this ran deeper, so it hurt more, and I would not be a secret again.
My legs felt heavy under me, as I made my way down the path back toward the pack, along the treeline. “Bailey!” I heard Asher calling me, but I refused to turn back to him.
The whimpering from Akira only grew louder. She did not agree with me on this one. But, I was the one that had to tolerate all that pain from Miles… and the thing was, there had been no feelings there. This time, I am afraid to say, there were feelings there. There may be no actual bond, but there were feelings. Too many…
I heard heavy footsteps pounding on the path behind me, as
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Asher was suddenly alongside me. “Will you f**g stop!” he snapped, sounding a little breathless. I assumed it was because he had been running to catch me up.
I glared at him. “Well, if someone doesn’t stop when you call them, it generally means they don’t want to talk to you, Asher.” I snarled in response. “So, get the f**g message.”
His eyes widened in shock at my words, but I continued to walk, planning on heading straight back to my room and hiding out there for the rest of the night. I was sure if I asked Marc to bring me food to my room he would.
“Right, I may be completely thick, but did I miss something?” he asked. He **ked his arm through mine and pulled me into the forest now, so we were out of sight. Oh, wonderful, he didn’t want anyone to see us arguing. Of course, we wouldn’t want that now, would we?… heaven forbid somebody suspect him of being with the new girl…
“What do you think you are doing?” I s**d my arm from his. “Worried somebody might see you with me? Put two and two together? Don’t worry. There is nothing to hide. Your dirty little secret is done.” I quickly moved away from him.
Asher rushed after me, he turned me to him, hurt and confusion all over his handsome features. “What the f*k?!” he stuttered. “Dirty little secret?!”
“I am sick of being treated like a f**g secret by people. So just f**k off.” I felt tears threatening, and needed to get away. “I thought you were different.” My voice was turning into almost a sob…
“Bailey, what are you talking about?” he tried to reach for my
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hand, but I pulled it from his grip.
“You don’t see?” I demanded, which is quite difficult when you are doing your best to hold back your tears…
“Beautiful, please, come on. F**g hell, you are all I think of right now. Do you know how big that is for me?! I had thought I would be alone forever, and then you came into my life like a f**g wrecking ball, all fire and fight. Driving me crazy, but reaching out to me in a way I can’t even explain. Why would you, even for one second, think I consider you a dirty secret?” I saw tears in his eyes now, and I began to doubt my own mind. Had Miles f**d up my own mind so badly, I always came to the worst thought…
“Think about it.” I urged. “You pulled me in here for one.”
“That was because you are worried about what people will think of you being around me a lot. How many times have you said that, Bailey?” he said, his shoulder sagging. “Not to mention I do not want the whole f**g pack knowing my business!”
It was my shoulders sagging now, as I began to think he might be right. “What about how you acted when Alli came in? You cannot deny you did not want her seeing us together. You dropped my hand like a hot potato the moment she stepped into the room.”
He sighed, leaning himself against a tree. “Alright, yes, you got me there. But, this is a little more awkward, Bailey. That is my former mother-in-law, and I do not know how to handle that. How do I tell her I want to move on? When I have been alone ever since Isla died? Not so much as bothered with another woman. Not wanted to, until you came along, messing with my mind.” he smiled across at me sheepishly. “I don’t want to hurt
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her. They were always so good to me.”
I felt foolish now. I think I can understand that. I nodded. Maybe I overreacted.
“And, in my defense, beautiful, you did say you did not want the teachers at school questioning anything between us after that first time they were asking, so I was trying to protect you too. Maybe not very well. But I was trying. Hell, sweetheart, I don’t think I am doing any of this very well. I am out of practice, okay?” he opened his arms up to me, as if in offer of a hug, and I moved toward him.
“I am sorry. I was out of order, I think.” I whispered, as I rested my head against his chest. “I was scared, Asher.”
“Scared I would hurt you?” he asked softly, and I nodded.
“Sweetheart, you never have to worry about me hurting you. I would fight heaven and earth to ensure you don’t get hurt. You might have missed me saying this the other night because you fell asleep, but I mean it. I will do everything I can to protect you Bailey.” His lips tenderly touched the top of my head, while my heart worked overtime racing at his words… he seemed to have got pretty serious, pretty fast…