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Sadie.
I stare at Alec, and I know that something was working in his mind. It was quite clear that he didn’t like the fact that I was his mate, or the fact that I rejected him. To be honest, it puzzled me.
He couldn’t hide the hate he has for me, and I hate him right back. So why the hell would he reject my rejection? It didn’t make any f**g sense. I thought him of all people would be ecstatic. Or is he p**d because I rejected him first? Maybe he wanted to be the one to do it, so he could humiliate me.
I want to believe that, but something tells me that there is more to this. There is a reason he wants me as a mate, despite the simple fact that he hates my guts.
“I hate this, Sadie” Nyx says in an almost agitated voice.
“I know” I reply. “It’s not like I am jumping for joy right now. The last thing I want is to be mated to this monster.”
I doubt I’ll ever get over what he did to me. The scar on my face will always be a reminder of just how cruel he can be. I was innocent. I would never have done anything to hurt him despite being madly in love with him, yet he destroyed me. He nearly ended my life and Aspen’s.
How am I supposed to live with that? How am I supposed to let go of that and accept him as my mate? How am I supposed to look in the mirror and still kiss him and sleep beside him? I don’t think that will ever be possible. It would take a divine miracle for that to happen.
“We need to get him to accept the rejection,” Nyx adds. “The last thing I want is to be tied to his wolf.”
“Has he tried reaching out?” I ask curiously.
“Yeah, but I have blocked him” she replies. “I don’t want to talk to him or see him. Hell, I don’t want to be anywhere near him. Not after what they did to you.”
I could cry right now. Nyx can be pushy, annoying and stubborn at times, but she’s the best. One of the things I’m grateful to the moon goddess is giving me Nyx. The fact that she supports me against her mate is amazing. I’ve heard of stories of wolves pushing their humans towards reconciliation despite their mates rejecting them, or cheating on them.
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We were taught that when that happens, it causes the bond between the human and his or her wolf to break because they want different things. The wolf’s insistence drives the human almost to the point of insanity.
A lot of terrible s**it has happened to me in the past few years, but one of the blessings the goddess gave me is Nyx. “Thank you, Nyx,” I tell her in a small voice. “I was afraid you’d want your mate. You have no idea what this means
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to me. The fact that you’re on my side”
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“Always, my lovely human” she says, nonchalantly, but she can’t hide her wolfy smile. “Now, let’s focus on how to get them to agree, so that we can get rid of this bond.”
Alec, Micah and Jason’s eyes were a bit unfocused, so I’m sure that they were communicating through their mind
link.
“The first thing we need to do is find out what he’s hiding,” I tell her, as I continue studying Alec. “There is a reason why he wants me us as a mate, Nyx. I saw how besotted and in love he was with Lola, so I simply can’t believe that he’s over her. The fact that he was still p**d off, enough to kill me, tells me that he still has feelings for her and seeing me reminded him that he lost her.
Nyx looks at me with a proud smile. Or what I assume is a smile given that she has an animal’s form.
“I taught you well, my darling” her voice radiates pride. “Your observation is correct. Us being their mate changed something. They hate us, but they need us for some reason. We just need to find out why they need us, and then we can use it to our advantage.”
“I like that plan. Like you said, if we find the reason, we’ll have the upper hand and something tells me that whatever it is, they desperately need us for it.”
My mind is trying to find out the reason behind his sudden shift. It must be something big. Something he has no control over. Something important enough to make him tolerate me as a mate. Well, that is until he gets what he
wants.
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The thing, though, is that I’m not the same gullible, naïve Sadie I was before. He’ll learn that soon enough. He can’t use me, and I won’t let him unless there is something I’m benefitting. He can’t intimidate me and use me. I am an Alpha, and he’ll play to my tune if he wants to get whatever it is he’s after.
“We can think of it later, right now, I want us to shift” Nyx says, her voice brimming with excitement. “It’s been such a long time since I shifted, and I am dying for a run.”
At first, I’m puzzled, but then I remember what she told me the previous night.
Turning to the other, I clear my throat to get their attention.
“As much fun as this has been, I’ve got **t to do” I begin. “I am kindly telling you to leave my office and pack.”
“I’m not leaving, Sadie… Not until we have settled things between us” he says through a clenched jaw.
“What is there to settle? You just have to accept the rejection, so we don’t have to see each other again.” I say with a shrug.
Given whatever reason he’s hiding/I know he won’t accept the rejection, but it feels so good to get a rise out of
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him.
“Not going to f**g happen” this time he growled, anger radiating off of him.
“Fine have it your way, but get out of my office… I need to speak to my officials without your unwanted presence contaminating the air I breathe.”
I watch him carefully. He was about to explode, but Micah grabs his hand and shakes his head. This seems to get through him, because he takes a deep breath and reigns in his anger.
Yeah, there is definitely something he wants from me, and he proved that after Micah reminded him to play nice.
After giving me a scathing look, Alec opens the door and storms out. Jason follows him out, and then Micah, after he gives me a respectful bow. Sometimes I wonder why Micah isn’t the Beta. He does more than Jason, knows how to handle things better and has more brain cells than him.
I know the position is handed down by the parents, but still, it’s clear that Micah is better suited for that position. Anyway, it isn’t my business.
“I must say that I did not see that coming,” Raven says as King crosses the room and closes the door after the trio.
“Me too,” King adds, coming to stand before my desk. “Question is, why did Alec refuse your rejection given his hate towards you?”
“We think it’s because he wants something from us.” I don’t need to tell them who ‘we’ is.
I then proceed to explain everything we’ve discussed with Nyx and our theory on why he doesn’t want the
rejection.
“Yeah, that makes sense,” King states after I’m done.
I turn to Raven. “Did you get a reading out of him??
She nods. “It was hard because he’s d**n good at keeping his emotions in check, but when you rejected him, his control slipped. I sensed panic and desperation from him. He managed to quickly conceal them, but I was able to get a small glimpse.”
So, I was right after all. For some reason, Alec was desperate and he needed me. The hard part will be figuring out what would make the almighty Alpha Alec desperate enough to want me as a mate.
I push those thoughts behind to the back of my mind and stand up. Nyx is pushing me to go outside.
“Where are you going, Sadie? We have a lot to do,” King calls behind me..
“I going to shift, Nyx is dying to go for a run” I reply, my mind a bit distracted.
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“What do you mean by shift?” this comes from Raven. “I thought you already shifted” she says, referring to yesterday.
Sighing, I stop and face them. “According to Nyx, I have three forms. Today I’m shifting into a wolf, which is my third form.”
With that, I walk out, not really bothered if they follow behind or not. I could already feel the need to shift burning inside me.