Avery’s pov 
I was never good at hiding my feelings. Xade always knew whenever I was mad or sad, and right now I did not want him to spot the jealousy that consumed me. I tore my eyes away, pushing the sounds of Mel’s giggles out of my head. 
“I didn’t know you’d come to see me so early,” She giggled. I expected Xade to reply with the corniest line but he surprised me when he uttered instead. “I came to see V actually.” 
My eyes snapped up in surprise at his confession and I couldn’t help but feel a flush on my ch*eks. “Me?” I breathed out. Gosh Avery, act natural. It’s not like he had never come to see you this early before. Sometimes he even snuck in your dorm to sleep beside you when you feel shitty. 
This shouldn’t be awkward. 
Xade nod and sidesteps Melissa to step into the room. His form is so big and intimidating, that our small room looks too little for him. A. gust of wind from the open window flutter toward him and caused his dark hair to tousle. 
He wore a grey t–shirt that fit snugly against his upper body and outlined the abs I felt up last night. He finished off the look with some dark ripped jeans and his combat boots. 
Xade was drop dead gorgeous. Everyone could vouch for that. There was not one girl who did not want Xade Archer, a mysterious bad boy who was the hottest guy here. 

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With a height of 6’3, baby blue eyes, black hair, sharp jawline and dimples whenever he smiled, Xade was every woman’s fantasy. Admittedly, including mine. 
However right now with Melissa’s red lipstick stain on his ch*ek and lips, as if she had just marked her territory, I can’t help but think childish and say he looks rather ugly. 
He nod, eyeing the sheets that covered more than half my body. 
Was he worried? Of course he was, Xade was always worried about me.” You mentioned you were not feeling well and I came to drop you. some meds.” He lifted the brown paper bag I had just noticed in his 
hand. 
My eyebrows nearly lift to my hairline. I did? I don’t remember texting this to Xade. I don’t remember not feeling well too, well except for the ache between my legs. But I am sure a good steamy shower will help with that. 
Awe, you’re such a good best friend babe,” Mel cooed and looked. down at her watch and cursed. “Shit, I gotta go before I am late. See you later V and text me baby!” she yelled over her shoulder as she closed the door and left Xade and me in the room all alone. 
F*ck. 
I awkwardly drop my gaze to the floor, the flush on my ch*eks getting hotter every second the silence stretches on awkwardly. Until he decided to break it with him clearing his throat. 
“I got you this,” he approached me and I lifted my eyes, biting my lower lip as butterflies race in my stomach. 
I had always found Xade attractive and in fact always had a huge crush 
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on him. But he had always treated me as a sister and I didn’t want to ruin our friendship by acting in on it. 
I’d rather have him as my best friend than not have him in my life at all. I’d do anything if I could go back in time and not step into the room he shared with my boyfriend. 
I’d do anything to get things back to how it was between us before he had been inside me. 
As he stopped beside the bed, he crouches until he is same level with me and I flinched. He frowned. “I figured you’d be sore,” he nudged his chin toward my stomach but I know he meant between my thighs. 
How embarrassing. 
He outstretched his hand to give me the bag. Xade has always been there for me and took care of me always, so I am not really surprised he was doing it right now. 
Although I wish he hadn’t because I had not been ready to see him in the daylight after what happened between us last night. 
I awkwardly took the bag and opened it, splaying the contents on the bed. When I saw the boxes I scoffed inwardly. There’s plan B here but also pain reliever medication. I focus more on the plan b. 
Plan b?” I met his eyes and noted how they shifted away from mine and he awkwardly lifted his hand into his hair, scratching it. 
Xade always does this when he was either nervous or frustrated. In this case I am more leaning on him being nervous. 
His baby blue eyes burn through mine. “Last night I didn’t have a condom on.” I watch his Adam’s apple bob as he swallowed. “I came inside you V.” 
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Oh God. Did he have to be so blunt about it? Somehow instead of feeling embarrassed an odd sensation ran through me, like a thrill of some sort. Am I seriously getting turned on right now? I am mortified to feel the sleekness of my wetness between my legs. 
Xade nostrils’s flared and he sucked in a deep breath, tearing his eyes away and clearing his throat. He stood up and somehow his actions made tears prick my eyes. We said we would pretend as if last night. didn’t happen but why is this hurting me? 
“Don’t” I croaked, reaching for the plan b box. “Don’t treat me like some fragile doll Xade. You promised we would pretend that what happened last night didn’t. We would go back to how things were and not be awkward.” 
Xade eyes flashed something but it was gone quickly before I was able to read it. But his next words made my mouth run dry. “It’s impossible to go back to how things were between us V.” 
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